Author Gossip

Choosing a Name

2011-10-30T21:18:00.000-07:00

I have found that the most important part to starting a story, is to give your characters a name. When I name characters, I don't like to just give them any name, it has to be special, and it is always chosen carefully.

Surprisingly, I started writing again today, and about half a page in, I realized I needed to voice one of the characters names. The problem was, nothing came to mind. While writing this, I keep repeating the song Speed of Sound by Coldplay. I decided I was going to name one of the characters after the lead singer of Coldplay, so I searched it up.

His name is Christopher Anthony John "Chris" Martin. While I love the name Chris, its too too much of a coincidence that I'm in love with the actor Chris Colfer. So I looked into Anthony. However that matches someone I work with. The implications of naming the character Anthony is WAY too much to handle. So I looked into his last name, Martin. Its not bad, but I'm not sure it has that flare I'm looking for.

So I have this internal debate. do I name him Chris, and lose the character in my mind because I keep relating him to Chris Colfer? Do I name him Anthony, and grit my teeth thinking of the one I work with? Or do I name him Martin even though its only lukewarm? I wanted the name to be a hidden reference to the song that started the story.

So I instead started looking at another band I've been listening to while I write: Depeche Mode. guess what, the lead singers name is Martin Gore. The name Martin is a sort of odd connector between the two. and While thinking about it, I realize that the name is fairly decent, especially since its a reference to BOTH bands. (Even though originally I wanted one name from both.)

This is only one name. Its only the first! I'm not even going to go into the others!

When you're writing, does the name you pick out mean anything? or is it just one that sounds nice?

Darkness Hurts

2011-10-23T08:25:00.001-07:00

I don't care about the darkness;

or how it makes me cry.

I promise to myself,

I'll keep the hurt inside

Autumn Layout~!

2011-09-25T20:09:00.000-07:00

I finally got around to changing the layout again.

Here is my new Autumn layout!

This picture was the basis of the entire thing. It was a toss up between that one and this one

In the end the pink one won. Basically because it was SO much easier to work with......But you never know. I might still do the orange one. It still appeals to me ^.~

Hop-Scotch Girl + Natural Recipies!

2011-09-15T18:03:00.001-07:00

I stumbled upon this girl, and was completely blown away by this original song of her of composure! Just listen to it, at least once

Also, by going from link to link, I was able to find this totally amazing Blog that is all about healthy natural homemade foods! You wouldn't believe how easy and delicious some to them look! Like:

I am going to have to make some of them in this coming week ^.^ I've always supported the idea of being Vegiterian/Vegan. She even has some inspirational posts about keeping at it, and how to fight those challenges of being healthier!

This looks like a very good place to start! Silvergal, it looks like you have a winner website!

Ergo Proxy

2011-08-24T12:01:00.000-07:00

While watching the anime Ergo Proxy, I saw this opening. My first thoughts were of a friend I hold dear to me. This friend was someone I used to love. I can still remember hearing this while lying my head on his chest. A bittersweet heartbreaking memory. Something precious and something lost.

I text him and told him I was watching Ergo Proxy and thinking of him. How I wish things could be the way they were before..... how I wish he was gay.....

He text back and told me that if it made me feel any better, he wished he was also.

That statement seemed so....sad. I told him that it sounded so sad. and asked why he would ever think something like that. his reply was this:

"Because I love you as well. And I know that you love me even more. Why wouldn't it bother me that I'm not gay when I know someone cares about me so much?"

It was so honest it hurt. I thought for a minute before writing back

"I love you for being you. And I know that while we can't be partners, we can still be friends."

His reply was "Always *smiles*"

and that was that.

They were the words I was looking for. It was something I needed to hear.

The first impression

2011-08-23T15:27:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I found out that one of my co-workers is gay. This was a surprise to me, I just never knew. When I asked her, she got all offended and told me

"So what? Does that matter? I'm a lot more things than gay."

I was a little bothered by this comment, as its usually my leading statement to those who i think are going to be unkind..

A few minutes later I heard her talking to a few other servers about how people make snap decision judgments about someone once they find out their gay. How they don't bother to get to know you, they just figure your gay and thats all they really need to know. She continued, but I had left by this point, choosing to ignore her words.

As I thought about this comments she made, I found myself in a spiral of depression and anger.

I wanted to go out there and tell her everything that was on my mind. I had known her for 2 months and hadn't known she was gay. I knew she is a teacher for a university, I knew she didn't like coffee, but liked hot tea. I knew she had 2 children, one with a serious drug problem. I knew she felt like she is ignored by other teachers, and that she was a server just for fun. I knew all of this before I knew she was gay. My first impression of her wasn't 'oh, your gay'. I got to know her as a mother, a teacher, and a friend.

I wanted to ask her what she knew about me. I decided when I went to work for Village Inn, that I wouldn't share my past. There have been a few times I've felt like giving out little hints, but other than that, I have kept everything a secret. I can recall everything I have ever told her. and the truth is, its not much. The most she knows about me is that I'm gay, and I live on my own.

Does she know that I want to become an author? Does she know that I have a rocky relationship with my parents? That I would love to learn to play the piano, or that I love collecting lanterns? Does she know anything about me other than the fact that I'm gay? I bet she couldn't even tell me what my favorite color was.

In the end I found myself very bothered by her comments. Judgmental herself at best, Hypocritical at worst.

It's been (even more) of a while

2011-07-12T17:23:00.000-07:00

Man, it sure has been forever! So much has happened, its hard to know where to begin

First) I quit Walmart a while ago. I now work at Village Inn. I absolutely love it. They treat their associates like gold, and the people there are so fun to work with!

Second) I'm living with my friend Andrew. I have moved out of my parents house, and now live in Provo. At the end of July, the contract for their current place runs out. So we have been searching diligently for a new 3 bedroom place (there are 3 of us)

Third) I really miss you all! I havn't gotten on my Email, Facebook, Deviant, Blog, ect in a very long time. Like a month!

I'm sorry to all of you that noticed I was missing. I'm sure its been crazy making that I'm no longer around. But there is nothing I can really do about it. Work and life has been keeping me very very busy. and we don't have any internet.

I hope to be able to post more, but that will probably be when I have internet at home (Sometime after August 1st)

Wish me luck! and have a fabulous summer!

Its gone forever.....

2011-06-08T10:53:00.000-07:00

I would like to give a quick summery of everything that has happened these past 3 days.

Day 1) I went to the Gay Pride Festival. Second year I've gone. Always lots of fun. Meet new people, pick up like a million fliers, get free swag. Fun stuff. I also got a killer sunburn on my shoulders. Its what I get for not putting on enough sunscreen

I found a picture of me!
In this, Sarah, the girl holding up two fingers is JUST covering me!

There I am, in the D ^.^

Day 2) I go to my friend Andrews house, we spend the whole time looking at apartments. That was lots of fun too. Me, Andrew, Amanda, and David, looked at like 5 apartments. They got progressively worse as the day went on, but the last one was a real winner.

I bid them adieu, and left that night. I got all the way home when I realized my bag was missing off my scooter......

I took the car, and raced back following the exact same path. But to no avail......Its gone......

It was my favorite messenger bag, it was grey with these cool designs on it.
This is what it had inside:
-My Camera
-Ipod
-Wallet
-My notebook for story ideas
-my journal.....

I'm sad I lost my Ipod, and my camera with all its pictures from Pride, and everything before and after that. I'm sad I lost my wallet, that had my ID, my walmart card, a $30 check. and sentimental things. For example, like 3 years ago, I bought James Dashner a Christmas present. I always kept the receipt hidden away in my wallet as a secret reminder that I had once done that.

But more importantly (to me) My notebook and my journal........

That notebook had 5 months worth of notes, ideas, drawings, and even 2 short storys in it. Things that can't be replaced....The reason I write them down is so I don't forget them.....

Then theres my journal. You know the nature of a journal.....its something deeply personal, with things you dont want random strangers to read.

I just want those two things back......they are the most important to me....

Embarrassingly, that bag would've had a huge gay feeling to it. It had flyers from Pride, the camera was full of pictures from Pride. You had my journal and my notebook, both with gay elements in them.

Whoever found it, is going to have the most interesting reading material ever..........

In the end I am still praying someone returns the bag. The back of the Ipod has my moms phone number on it. and my drivers license is in the wallet, so it would have been easy to find me.

However, my worst fears are that it was hit by a car, simply smashing everything inside. Because also inside was a bottle of hairspray, and some Axe body spray. If it had been hit by a car, both of those would have exploded everywhere.......

So pray for me that its found.....I really want it back :(

X-Men: First Class

2011-06-04T11:40:00.000-07:00

I saw X-Men last night! After waiting FOREVER for this movie! There is even proof in This Post from 2009!

So yeah. Honestly, I really liked it ^.^ I'm not going to give away anything, so this is safe to read.

It was cool going into some of the background story of characters like Magneto, Charles and Mystique.

It had some cool scenes, but this movie really wasn't action oriented. More informational.

As such, my brother who went with me didn't like it as much as I did.

I'll compare it to .hack//SIGNS. Signs is a really fantastic anime! The problem most people have with it though is that it is almost exclusively 90% dialogue. Something that really puts off the people that prefer action to words.

In the end I really did like First Class. There was only one scene that left me with a bad taste....but I can gloss over that.

I give it a 8 of 10

P!nk had her baby!!

2011-06-03T08:28:00.000-07:00

Its official! P!nk had her baby last night! Its a baby girl, and her name is Willow!

Congratulations Alicia! That is soooooo awesome! ^.^

Happy Birthday Nicole!!!!!!

2011-06-02T10:11:00.001-07:00

Happy Birthday Nicole!!! ^.^

J.K. Rowlings + M. Night Shyamalan

2011-06-01T10:58:00.000-07:00

There are two websites I feel you should visit at least once.

The first is J. K. Rowlings website

This magical site is chalk full of interesting trivia, cool layouts, fun facts, and crazy rumors! In the end you will find yourself having spent more time than you thought you had browsing though it!

The second is the website of M. Night Shyamalan

This website carries a much darker, creepier tone. But still ends up feeling more like an interactive game than a website. Moving through it, solving riddles to each room. It ends up being quite the adventure! But seriously, it is more than a little creepy. Browser beware.

The only real complaint I have with both of these sites is that they are not current. J.K. hasn't had anything new happen since Beedle the bard came out. While Shyamalans site still claims The Happening is his newest movie, when we know that his most current is The Last Airbender (and arguably Devil). But come on people! I don't want to hear about The Happening! Thats old news! I want to confront the rumor that Will Smith and his son Jaden Smith are going to be in Shyamalans next movie about some post-apocalyptic after earth kinda world!

Despite the minor flaws, I feel you should still give their two websites a chance. You never know, you might find out something you didn't know before.

Found them!

2011-05-28T11:59:00.000-07:00

So, in my Past Layouts section, I have only ever described the first 3 backgrounds I ever had. Simply because I couldn't ever find them again.

Well, I was watching this video I made, when I realized, I had put all 3 backgrounds into it!!! So I was able to locate the original file for 2 of them. But not the first sky picture. Doesn't matter though, I still think its cool I found them! woots! ^.^

Happy birthday Chris Colfer! (21)

2011-05-27T09:54:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday dear Chris Colfer! If I knew a way to send you something, I totally would! Until then I guess I'll have to just wish you happy birthday from here

Nuclearoids

2011-05-26T12:01:00.000-07:00

I have recently gotten into a very short game that I think is absolutely amazing!

Its called Nuclearoids.

I honestly think I'd call it a music game, from the feeling it has while playing it.

I guarantee you can finish the game in less than 20 minutes. but all I'm asking for is 5. Just give the game 5 minutes and see what you think of it

Nuclearoids.

Now 20

2011-05-25T18:29:00.001-07:00

Thank you everyone for your kind birthday wishes ^.^ From the phone calls to the drop ins, I felt it was a very special day ^.^

Really guys, you made it amazing. *High five*

Turning 20.....

2011-05-21T10:56:00.000-07:00

On Monday, I turn 20

Thats a day I never thought was going to happen. When I was younger, I always thought that being 20 was something that was never going to happen to me. That I would just keep living life as a little kid forever and ever.

Kinda naive, but hey, I still can't believe this day is here!

I have certainly gotten older. I mean, for example, I started this blog when I was 16. Since then I have seen and learned so much! I discovered new things about myself, I traveled to Mongolia! I lived on my own, and I made new friends from all across the world. I had ups and downs. Times that were amazing, and times that just weren't. I've had different jobs, and seen the world through different eyes.

I just can't believe I'm getting older.

I still feel like I did when I was 16. or 10. or 8. or 6.

However, there is one thing I know with certainty, 20 is going to be one of the best years of my life!

I am going to make a change, and I am going to have something to show for it. I'm promising myself more than anything, that this year I will make a difference. This year I will do everything I can to improve.

Hopefully I'll get a better job. and move out of my parents house back into an apartment. Maybe I'll become a better writer. or a better artist. or a better songwriter. Maybe I'll finally learn how to read sheet music. Maybe I'll try and be better organized and be more appreciative. and maybe, just maybe, I'll find my elusive perfect other half.

Thank you everyone for being my friend ^.~ No matter how long its been since we've spoken, know that I still appreciate your friendship ^.^

Your now older friend,

Jacoby Nielsen ~Future Author

(Ps, I changed my layout again. A very summerlicious look!)

10 Days

2011-05-13T18:12:00.000-07:00

Its hard for me to believe. But its coming to an end.

That is right

In 10 days, I will no longer be a teenager! I will become a buff burly MAN! (probably not)

In 10 days, I'll turn 20! Whoa! Look at that number! I think its going to bite someone!

I just figured I write about because I think its some kind of milestone.

Or maybe its the middle stone. I'm no longer 19. So I'm not a teenager. But I'm not 21. So I'm not a full blown adult either. Its like that odd middleground that no one wants to talk about.

Honestly, I'm really looking forward to being 20. I think its going to be the best year of my life! whoooots!

It had better be! ^.^ Anything has to be better than what 19 was *shudder*

So yeah.......I'm turning 20! *dance*

Glee 2:20 - Prom Queen

2011-05-11T19:41:00.000-07:00

A while back, I stopped reading the episode descriptions before the episode actually aired. As such, I was completely blown away by this episode.

This was a real Glee episode. One that pulls on your emotions, one that makes you gasp in surprise, and freezes the entire world around you.

This was definitely one of my most favorite episodes.

A few points: *Spoiler Alert!*

1st) Kinda cool to see Jessie St. James come back. But I never really like him to begin with.....so *shrugs* whatever, nice tribute to the past.

2nd) I am actually falling in love with the character Karofsky. He is becoming someone I actually really like in the series. and as characters go, I think Kurt and Karofsky would be a better couple than Kurt and Blane *prepares for flames* I don't think the writers would actually do it, but now that we have seen Karofsky does have a soft side, I find that he is actually really sweet and emotional. Kurtofsky for the win!

3rd) I loved that they covered Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri. I really love that song, and it seemed like a very nice tribute to me.

4th) I'm sorry, but I still don't buy into the 'Santanas a lesbian' bit.

5th) of course, Kurt being nominated for Prom Queen. That really was a jaw dropping OH EM GEE moment. I havn't felt that level of shock since Karofsky kissed him in the locker room. I was also pretty shocked that Kurt took it so offensively. You'd think he'd be happy. But then again, it was a very realistic human response. Something I'm glad they still put into the show every so often. In the end I'm really happy that he had the courage to go back up there and accept that award. and his "Kate Middleton, eat your heart out" was perfect!

There were a few other things, like Brittanys rejection of Arties apology, the fight between Jessie and Finn, and the fight between Racheal and Quinn. Also, I do feel bad for Mercedes not having a date. They really need to find her someone....

In the end, this episode was VERY well written. It was exciting, and shocking. Everything a good story should have. Ian Brennan, GREAT WRITING!

Playing Outside

2011-05-04T17:47:00.000-07:00

So today, since we were babysitting my little brother and sister and inside it boring, we took them outside to play.

There was some sidewalk chalk sitting around, so I sat down to draw something. At first I drew a tulip, since we have a few in the garden. But as I was sitting there, my little sister Avonlea struck a pose that I thought was just too cute!

So from memory, looking back at her every so often to check if it looked right, I drew her. I think it turned out really really well!

Later I pulled out the camera so I could take a picture of her as a comparison.

Pretty close.

What do you think? Comment below! ^.^

Mary's Proposal

2011-05-02T10:54:00.000-07:00

A while ago I helped my two friends Mary and Corbyn.

Mary (the one who did all these photoshoots) has been dating Corbyn for (I believe) 2 years.

Well one day Corbyn called me up and told me he was going to propose to her. We made plans, yata yata, and eventually, BAM! He proposed!

Well Mary put it on YouTube, and I would like to share it with you! ^.^

The real video doesn't start till 0:45

Aw!!! Wasn't that sweet!!! (and yes, that is my voice.)

I thought I should share it, since I did have a hand in the making.

Oh, the reason I couldn't focus on her face is because it was so bright out that the display wouldn't show what it was focusing on.

But in the end it was so very awesome!!!

Proposals for the win!!!

But you never know Mary, me and Corbyn could have had something special! ^.~

Later!

Blank Stare

2011-04-23T13:37:00.000-07:00

I have again changed the layout blog. It looks like this-

It used to look like this-

What do you think? I wanted to move towards a move classy look. I might also be suffering from a wee bit of depression. That might also be a factor. I bet its because its raining out (dirty rain!)

What do you think of it? Yes? No?

Even then, expect the next layout sometime in the middle of May. This one is staying.

Simone's Last Name

2011-04-22T21:48:00.000-07:00

For those that have been following the odd story of Simon, here is the next chapter

Part 1 - Where are you now?
Part 2 - Looking for Simon

When we left off, I had decided I was going to go back to Wasatch and search the 2000-2001 yearbook to find Simon

Returning to Wasatch

I finally got the chance to go back to Wasatch today. I went through the school to the Library. When I got there, the librarian recognized me and asked if I was back to take a second look. I told her that I hadn't thought about it before, but Simon would be in the 2000-2001 yearbook also! She told me I was free to go back and take a look.

I went to the back, opened the door, and stepped inside. I already knew where to look. All it took was that single glance to realize it couldn't be that easy....

No surprise. The yearbook for 2000-2001 was not there. I did the same thing I did last time, and moved them all around, hoping that it would suddenly appear. It never did...

I walked out of the room, shut the door, and went to leave. The librarian stopped me as I walked past, asking if I had finally found him. I told her I hadn't. That the book wasn't there. She couldn't believe it. She already knew the story, since I had told her last time. She told me that she was actually really interested in this, and wanted to know the answers herself.

So we went to the front office, and she asked the secretary there if there were any other copies of the yearbook/student directories in the office. She said she didn't think so, but still looked around. As she was searching, she found something! She pulled it off the shelf, and we looked at it. 2002-2003......

It was the wrong one....a year off.

I sighed. This was becoming pointless. Maybe I was never meant to find Simon......

The secretary said she was going to check the principles office as a last resort. She left, then came back 30 seconds later, holding a book.

"Is this it?" she asked, showing me the cover

I looked at it, 2001-2002.

Yes! It was the one! The one I had been looking for!!! The answers I needed were just feet away!!! so close!

But of course, it still seems something is trying to keep me from finding him. I say this because even though the book was RIGHT THERE, she held it for about 5 minutes while her and the librarian talked about meeting past students. I could feel every fiber of my being leaning towards it. trying to read its mind or something.

Finally, she handed it to me, and I started flipping through the pages. Maybe it was my imagination, but I swear as I turned from page to page it got harder to turn. The pages got heavier and heavier, until the final pages seemed to be stuck together. I turned the page one final time, feeling it catch and struggle to stay closed.

A page. Many face. Lots of names. I rapidly scanned the page.

I saw him. In the middle of the crowd of faces, I picked him out. For a second I just stared before I finally read the name below

Simone Martinengo

It clicked, I remembered! I couldn't even fathom how I had forgotten! I wrote it down, committing it to memory. I thanked both of them for all of their help, and I left.
(note: after finding out his name has an E at the end of it, I will from now on use the proper spelling)

Cyber Search

The first thing I did when I got home was jump on facebook and search for him. Despite Simone Martinengo being what I would consider a very rare if not one of a kind name, there are 3 Simone Martinengo's on Facebook!

I have sent all 3 of them messages, asking if they are the Simone I'm searching for.

One of them is a blank page, so they are unknown (and probably not them)

The second is a white guy who I'm sure isn't him

The third was the only potential candidate. However there is still a chance its not him....
(this is the profile pic)

Besides that, I did some more online searching, and this is what I have found

Simone went to Orem jr. high for 9th grade, and was on the Honor Roll (Source)
was on the 2008 11th grade Honor Roll, and went to Mountain View High (Source)
Was also on the 12th grade Honor Roll (Source)
Had an art project on display called "Vortex of Vanity" (Source)

So he stayed in Utah!

However, the best lead I have so far, is a MySpace account

I think it could actually be him!

The only thing that concerns me is one of the most recent comments. It says

"hey you still in brasil"

Its dated a year ago. Do you think its possible that he went to Brasil? That maybe he is still there?

I don't really know. All I know is I messaged this Simone also, and am praying its him

Only Time will Tell....

All I can do now is wait. See if anyone responds back or anything.

I am one step closer to finding him. In fact, I think I am almost there!

But like I said, only time will tell

Just keep wishing me luck!!!

~Jacoby

Night of Neglect (Glee 2:17)

2011-04-20T23:48:00.000-07:00

I just barely saw the new Glee! Night of Neglect!

All in all, I'd say I liked it. Wasn't a favorite, but it wasn't bad. I can't wait for the series to go on!

a couple thoughts - Nice to see Sunshine again.

okay, I guess thats my only thought. Okay.

In ze othza newz!

I am now frenchz!

Oh, I saw Insidious (twice) and Arthur (once)

Insidious was indeed AMAZING!!! But when I say it was scary, I'm talking totally way past messed up scary as all get out!!! But it was good. Still, I do not recommend it to anyone under the age of 35 18. and even then, you had better have a HIGH scare tolerance.

Arthur was....okay. Some of it was funny. or maybe I'm just a critique. If it doesn't make a lasting impression, I take it as a solid B movie.

Lets get into something more interesting! Like P!nk's cute little baby bump! ^.^

(photo courtesy of P!nk)

Something else cool and interesting. The superman shovel! or the swiss army shovel....okay, just watch for yourself. this thing should have its own TV show!!!

Totally amazing!

Well, later peeps! I'm going to bed! (work tomorrow.....again)

Looking for Simon

2011-04-11T17:11:00.000-07:00

If any of you can recall, I have been looking for my past friend Simon

(Link to the old post for those that don't remember)

I would like to share with you this odd story: Looking for Simon

First Problem:

Since he left in the 5th grade I have been trying to find him with no luck. The first problem I ran into is I don't remember his last name. I have been asking friends, but none of them can remember his last name either.

Plan Two:

If no one could remember Simon, I would have to find physical proof of his last name. I decided to go and look for my elementary scrapbook. I finally found it after weeks of searching. I opened it, turning past baby pictures, and preschool drawings. through the grades until I finally reached it. 5th grade. I turned the pages until I reached it......

A blank page.

My 5th grade yearbook photo was missing! I checked every box of photos we had and found absolutely nothing. I had every other year, just not 5th grade.

Next Idea:

I had it! I'd simply ask my friend Jessica if she had the picture. She was pretty good with keeping her own scrapbook pretty organized (at least this is what I think, correct me if I'm wrong)

I asked her to look for me, and she agreed. Problem was, she was at collage, and I would have to wait till she went home for the holidays.

I waited and waited, and finally one day, she gave me the news. No matter where she looked she could not find our 5th grade yearbook photo.

Mrs. Linford:

My 5th grade teacher, Mrs. Linford, was one of my most favorite elementary school teachers. Well one day, about a month ago, I ran into her in a store. We exchanged numbers and promised to keep in contact with each other.

I realized this was my chance! Who better than my 5th grade teacher herself to ask about Simon! I know she wouldn't remember him (its been 8 years), but she should have the yearbook photo!

I text her and asked if she could check it out for me. She said she would.

Again I waited and waited. Eventually she text me back a week later. She didn't have it. or at least couldn't find it. She was in the middle of a messy divorce, and her stuff was scattered everywhere.

Wasatch Elementary:

Okay, This was getting really strange. No one could find their 2001-2002 5th grade yearbook pictures.

So I went to the one place I knew HAD to have it. My elementary school: Wasatch Elementary.

I went to the front desk and asked if they had the yearbook photos of past years. They asked if I had gone to school here and I told them yes. They told me to go to the library, and the librarian would show me where they were.

The Library:

Finally! I would find his last name! I went to the library, talked to the librarian, and she opened a backroom door to where they kept the yearbooks. We went in and it was pretty cool! They had every single year book from 2010 to 1960! All neatly organized on a few shelves up on the walls. We got a ladder and started looking. I was looking for 2001-2002.

04-05, 03-04, 02-03, 00-01, 99-00

Wait....what? The librarian had noticed at this point.

01-02 is missing?

We looked everywhere, even pulling them all off the shelves to see if it had maybe been hidden behind them. It just wasn't there!!!

A Hasty Exit:

I couldn't believe it! I have tried almost everything! Why can't I find Simon!?!? Its really bothering me!!! So I left straight away and went to Mrs. Linfords class. I told her the story, from beginning to end. I finally got to the end, where I told her the yearbook wasn't there. Her reply was "Shut up! No way! The Library doesn't have it?"

We quickly brainstormed all the other students in that class, and she said she was going to try and contact some of the students she still talks to.

It wasn't until we ad been talking for almost an hour that I realized something that seemed so painfully obvious. Simon had gone to school 00-01! I could simply go back, and find him in the previous year!!! I went back to the library to find that it was closed. it was about 5:00, and school ended at 3:20.

I was so close to the information i needed. I probably brushed it when I was searching earlier. inches away from a single page that would tell me everything

The Final Statement:

I just need to go back to Wasatch and check the previous years yearbook. I am so close to finding Simons last name. But realistically, what happens after that? What if I never find out where he went after that? What if he has a really common last name? It would be much easier to find him if I knew his middle name also. I may find his name, and never find where he went after that.

It doesn't matter though, I won't ever give up. I'll keep looking until I finally find him.

Mirror Dreams

2011-04-10T11:30:00.000-07:00

A building of white marble. A slow soaking rain. I looked at my hands clenched at my sides. I took a deep breath, releasing my grip and letting my hands fall peacefully. I climbed the stairs, looking straight ahead. A door opened, and light spilled out pulling me in.

A crowded somber room. A long line of dark dressed tearful people. I stood behind a crying lady with a black veil obscuring her face, but not her sobs. The line moves forward like a trance. Dazed it goes without realizing it’s moving. It reaches its end, where people pause then scatter off like lost sheep. I step forward and glance at the object of everyone’s sorrowful devotion.

Black ebony wood. Eternal sleep. I leaned forward, my hair gliding around my face, every strand observing. I froze, unable to believe what I was seeing. Impossibilities no longer seemed so unreal. I could feel something grip my heart. A lost pain. Inside the black casket….was me.

I took a step back and could feel shards of ice falling from my eyes. I had died. I took another step back, turned and walked away. I headed for the door when I saw them. His family (or was it my family?) standing a ways beyond the casket. I walked to them for an explanation.

She saw me first. His mother. Her tears quickly turned to anger as she pointed a finger at me.

“I will never forgive you,” She hissed as she took a step forward, “Its your fault he died” She took another step forward and shoved me.

I fell backward, landing on smooth tiled floors. I was in a mirrored room. I looked at my reflection and noted my youth. The same age I was in the casket. I was 17. As I stared my reflection changed, morphing into an older version of myself. He gave me a bittersweet smile as he placed his hand against the opposite side of the mirror.

I looked at my future. I saw the happy glow in his eyes, the joy of a life being lived to its fullest. I started towards him when he slowly shook his head no. He pointed behind me. I turned and saw something else in that reflection. I saw my family beaming at me. So happy to see me, and see where I was in my life. I looked back at my future and he tapped his head.

Think about it.

I knew in that moment that I couldn’t have both. I turned back towards my smiling family. The question was clear. Do I leave my future to make my family happy? Or do I leave my family to make my future?

I watched both sides, weighing the options. I waited for what could have been a single moment, or an entire forever. Then I walked over to my family. They looked overjoyed to see me. I stopped right before them, and felt a tear slip down my cheek.

I love you…but I have to make my own way in the world.

I expected them to understand, like my future did. Instead the emotions ranged from anger to sorrow. I could feel the guilt eating me up inside. But I knew what I had to do.

I walked back to my future, and without any hesitation reached out and touched the glass. As our hands met, I could feel warmth. A golden light went from our hands covering both of us.

Suddenly I was back at the funeral. Being pushed back a step. I looked her in the eye and told her the truth

I never died. You just refused the person I became.

As I said those words, the doors and windows lit up with a brilliant, dazzling golden light. I could look away from it, but I couldn’t escape its light. I opened my eyes, stinging from the sun shining through the slats of my bedroom blinds…..

Like Mother, like Son?

2011-04-06T20:31:00.000-07:00

So, today my mom and some of my uncles went up with my dad as he did a flight with my grandfather. You would NEVER believe this picture she took of herself!!! Its EXACTLY the same as the one I took of myself!!!

Just take a look for yourself!

Honestly, we both thought that was such a cool coincidence when we looked back at the pictures!!! We were in the same seat, with the same headsets!

Katy Perry's E.T.

2011-04-01T12:41:00.000-07:00

Ooooh!!! For any of you that havn't seen, Katy Perry's new music video for her song ET has just come out!!!

Personally, I love it! The costumes, the makeup! especially the makeup!!! Its so amazing! and I love her extreme eyebrows!!! ^.^

Check it out here: MTV First: Katy Perry's 'E.T.'

Make it Special

2011-03-28T14:39:00.000-07:00

(Valentines Cake)

(Magical Rainbow Jello)

(Frosting Experiment Cake)

(Cupcakes for a friends baby shower)

(Badly Made Birthday cake)

(Green Experimental Jello Cake)

(Adriennes Birthday Cake)

(Silly little tropical drink)

I love baking, whether its something experimental, something that doesn't turn out quite right, or something that ends up looking fantastic! this is some of the stuff I have made that I actually have pictures of. My favorites are Adriennes Birthday cake and the Magical Rainbow Jello - both of which took a lot of time to finish!

Everything i make is special. Unique. Imbued with time and emotions. To get one is something rare.

You never know, maybe someday I'll make something for you too ^.~

Fly Away, Into the Azure Sky

2011-03-27T14:05:00.000-07:00

A couple days ago I got to fly with my dad!

(This is me with the headsets)

(My dad on the right, gray shirt)

(Looking down at houses)

(More Houses)

(Looking down at the land)

(Some cool fields!)

(If you look the engine, you'll notice its stopped. Its part of the test my dad was taking. Skipping the details, they shut off one of the engines)

Honestly, it was a lot of fun! and I would do it again in a heartbeat! ^.^

Treijim

2011-03-23T09:32:00.000-07:00

I decided that another artist I follow deserves a feature.

Treijim

His drawings are so realistic and lifelike that you would almost think they are photos!!!

Here are some of the ones I really find cool

I also like this one

I want him to tell me what hes running from! I think its a shadow. But it could be something cooler.

So Trijim, I think you rock. Hard.

^.~

Tom Preston

2011-03-22T14:14:00.000-07:00

I have recently started following a cartoonist named Tom Preston

Honestly, he is amazing!!! You all need to go and read his comics, laugh at his jokes, buy his books, and stalk with website!

From his series Alex Ze Pirate

to his intriging series Formera

to an interesting untapped character Percy Phillips

I love his So, Your A Cartoonist comics

His imaginative ideas

and his all around awesomeness!

In the end, Tom Preston is someone I hope to someday meet!

He is truly worthy of the title Cartoonist

Red Riding Hood

2011-03-21T09:08:00.001-07:00

The other day, I was hanging out with some friends when my mom text me asking if I would like to see a movie with her.

This NEVER happens, so I text her back saying 'yes, I'd love to'

We ended up seeing Red Riding Hood. It was, despite my trepidations about it, a very good movie!

In the end I thought it was cool that my mom asked if I wanted to see a movie with her. It was pretty special.

Original Song

2011-03-16T14:45:00.000-07:00

I saw the newest episode of Glee today - Original Song

I honestly really liked this episode! and as an added bonus, it wasn't a themed episode!

Lets see, what did I like about this episode....

Songs:
----
I loved Kurts redition of Blackbird. I thought it was beautiful.
I loved Puck's song Big Ass.....Heart. Thought it was funny, and really cool
I'm not so sure about Rachels solo though. It was a good song. But not a huge favorite.
I loved their Loser Like Me! I thought it was fantastic!
and of course, close to my heart, I loved hearing Raise Your Glass!

Character Development:
----
I thought it was cool that Blaine and Kurt are now an item. I'd think it was cooler if I didn't totally have the hots for Chris Colfer.....

Moving on,

I'm so glad to see Puck and Lauren are getting together also.

Most of my friends tell me how much they hate Rachel. I actually like her, so I don't get what they are talking about. However, in this episode, I totally saw what they were talking about. I can't put my finger on it, but she really bothered me today........

In the end I really liked this episode.

There is something else that has been bothering me though. and that is Sunshine Corazon. She came in the first episode, and then disappeared. I'm sure they are going to bring her back for the end. But as it is now, its really annoying that she hasn't come back. I feel like if she does come back, it'll be really rushed......

What are your thoughts?

Later!

Priest

2011-03-14T11:01:00.000-07:00

Lately, I have been reading the infinitely creepy manga called Priest

A couple years ago, in a box of free books I was given, were the first 4 books in the series. I read them, thought they were pretty disturbed, and only slightly interesting. So I pretty much ignored them.

Well now, for all those that don't know, they are making a movie called Priest.

After reading through 80% of the series, I think the movie and the book have little to nothing to do with each other. but still. I'm excited for the movie! I love the main actor!

Its funny, I realize that when I'm reading a book, one song will stick out more than the rest, and will end up being played over and over, until it keeps all the memories of those readings with it. That song (for this book) is

E.T. by Katy Perry

So there you go, Priest books, Priest Movie, and Katy and her Extraterrestrials.

P!nk Forever

2011-03-13T12:24:00.000-07:00

On P!nk's website, she posted about how Glee was indeed covering her Raise Your Glass song.

She posted a preview! Find it here:

Glee - Raise Your Glass

While i thought it was okay, I still feel like it is missing something. A certain spark. Its like they polished away all the rough edges, leaving it a softer song.

P!nk sings from the heart. When she sings, you can feel it resonating with you.

P!nk is still the greatest!

Little Nemo

2011-03-12T23:24:00.000-08:00

Recently, I found a movie I have not seen since I was a little kid. Its called Little Nemo: Adventures in Slumberland.

It may be more than a little cheesy, but I still love the art, and it was fun to watch again after so many years.

Well I found the movie on YouTube, in its full completeness! I'm going to post it here. So if you have the time, pop some popcorn, and enjoy this very cheesy, well animated, horribly scripted movie!

Jazama Pajama Pajama Jazama
Shimera Kazam Kimera Kazam
Imeratazam Paja-Pajap
Shazama Shazama Pajama Pajama

^.~

Draw for me

2011-03-10T23:58:00.000-08:00

My friend RadenWA drew me a picture! I'm so way excited about this! I asked him months ago, to just draw a simple picture, of what it would be like if we meet. and this is what he drew:

Isn't that just the coolest? I certainly thought it was! ^.^ and it actually looks like me! I'm not sure what he looks like though, but I'm sure its the same. he is a really good artist! ^.^

Thank you Raden! ^.^

The Last 4 Days

2011-03-03T23:41:00.000-08:00

As some of you may have noticed, my updates are fewer and fewer. It may be because we are no longer next to the holiday gambit, where we go from Halloween to New Years; the time I seem to blog and be online the most.

Actually, its because i have had the last 4 days off of work. I'm sure some of you are now going 'doesn't that mean you have more time online?' and while theoretically the answer could be 'yes', the answer is instead a resounding 'NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooooooooooo'

That leads to the age old question: Why?

Why is indeed a good question. that answer of which, is this:

If you had 4 days off (in a row), what would you rather do?

A) Stay home and cleaning your desperately messy room while YouTubing music and messing around with your Ipod, convinced you are doing this so you can get 'cleaning music'. All the while finding excuses to sit a for a spell, using whatever excuse you can. making it a very unproductive day because to be honest you really just wish you could use magic and make your room perfectly clean.

or

B) A friend calls you and says 'hey, we are having a birthday party for *insert name*, wanna come?' and you say 'well all im doing is ~~procrastinating~~ cleaning my room, sure, I'd love to' and you instead ditch your room to hang out with real people, laugh, crack jokes, act silly, and bake an awesome cake. Then the next morning, your uncle asks if you want to come over and play some video games. You then end up staying there until the last day, watching movies, playing games, drinking copious amounts of Sunny-D.

What would you choose?

I choose both. First, because I'm a rebel. and second, because I made the poll in the first place. ^.^

And there you have it. my whole 4 days. I cleaned my room, hung out with friends for a birthday party. hung out with my uncle, played many many a video game. watched too many movies. drank too much soda. got not enough sleep. late nights, early mornings. messed up sleep schedule. permanent dazed expression. you get the picture.

While I was over at my uncles house, we watched like a TON of movies. I'm going to list them all here:

Alpha and Omega
Dead Snow
Battle Royale
Zombies of Mass Destruction
I Sell the Dead
How to Train your Dragon
Battle Royale 2
Sanctum
Mad Money

Here is my quick review:

Alpha and Omega - Childrens movie, very cute. a lot better than I thought it would be. it gets a 9.5 out of 10 stars

Dead Snow - A scary half comedy about Gold-hunting Nazi Zombies. It was only half funny. actually was scary. I don't recommend it. Like at all.

Battle Royale - Pretty good, reminded me of a certain book. I'm going to post a review of Battle Royale tomorrow

Zombies of Mass Destruction - A very good movie. It was a comedy zombie movie (if you can't tell, 50% of our movies we're zombie movies) I actually really loved it. Especially 2 of the main characters that were a gay couple. they were hilarious. I thought the movie was pretty good. I'd rate it 9 or 10. but again, it does have a lot of gore (for zombie movie directors feel every papercut should be a fountain of very fake blood)

I Sell the Dead - LAAAAAAAAAAME movie. We were told it was a comedy. it wasn't. it was boring. repetitive. dull. boring. repetitive. dull. boring. repetitive. dull. bori- okay, you get the point. It had an actor in it that i liked, since he was in LOST. but the movie fell flat. with only 1 or 2 parts that I actually laughed at. the rest of the movie being a yawnfest.

How To Train Your Dragon - 10 of 10. seen it before. loved it before. still love it now. very cute.

Battle Royale 2 - didn't watch it very closely, i was too wrapped up playing a game at the time

Sanctum - not scary. actually kinda boring. The previews made it look scary.....when it really wasn't. heres a preview.

Mad Money - funny movie. I had actually seen part of this in Mongolia. It was pretty good.

Now we have video games. while there I played

Angry Birds
Portals
Psyconauts
some Elemental game.

In the end, I had a ton of fun. Sorry I was gone. I'm feeling like cutting this off because I got distracted and now don't want to write a post anymore.

later!

Raise Your Glass...again!!

2011-02-28T01:11:00.000-08:00

So, there has been a confirmed rumor that has been floating around for a while now. and I am way more than excited to spill the secret!

Glee is going to cover Raise Your Glass by P!nk in their episode Original Song.

I am totally excited about this! As everyone knows, P!nk is my hero, a female rock-star that will always have my heart.

I just couldn't believe the news ^.^ I thought I would share ^.^

The only downside? Its going to be sung by the Warblers. and unfortunately, i really don't like them. I think the show would be so much better if we weren't always cutting to their trivial dramas. Yes, I love Chris Colfer (Kurt). and I love to see what Kurt is doing. but honestly, I don't like the idea of him being with the enemy.

Its obvious to me that Kurt is going to eventually go back to New Directions. Why else would the camera STILL be following him around? I mean, he is like the heart of Glee. But if he was really finished, the directors would have written him out a long time ago.

So I have hope he is going to default back to New Directions.

Lets raise our glass everybody! P!nk's song Raise Your Glass will be on Glee! Yay! ^.^

The Broken Hour

2011-02-25T01:50:00.000-08:00

Destruction wrought

A price untold

A demon and a human soul

Chaos shrouds

The open lies

Ink black skies

And fireflies

Escape these halls

And tortured calls

Shackled minds

When time unwinds

The Broken Hour

Seeks out power

And from within

The cracks begin

Reality shatters

Light will scatter

Two worlds will merge

And life is purged

From the terror

Is the error

Of a demons trust

A human’s lust

A foolish plan

And hourglass sand

The fissures made

The price is paid

The absence of time

A world undefined

Can I have your Email Address?

2011-02-16T13:18:00.000-08:00

"Can I have your Email Address?" A phrase that is almost never used anymore.

I realized the other day, that while communication is becoming Real Time, we are no longer experiencing the closeness we used to have when talking to others.

Now days, when we find a friend, one of the things usually asked in a conversation is "Can I get your number?" We exchange numbers, then do nothing with them. Maybe texting when we need something. or just making small talk.

Everyone says "Wow! I don't know how we lived without cell phones! i bet no one ever talked to anyone else!" Yet back 7 years ago, before Cell Phones were common, you would ask your friend "Hey, can I have your Email Address?" Then you would send them a test email saying "Hey, this is Jacoby, just wanted to make sure I wrote it down right"

This would lead to often huge huge conversations. You would always be able to write as much as you wanted, talk about everything and anything. Emails would very quickly go from being playful to deep and thoughtful. As opposed to a phones 160 character limit it places on every text.

I feel text messages are just so shallow. There is not much real depth to them.

Now lets talk about pre-email.

I remember trying to call my best friend Andrew on his home line when I was in first grade. In those days the internet would take out the phone line if it was being used. So I almost never could get ahold of him through the phone. So we did the old fashion thing.

We would actually talk to each other! *audience gasp* Yes, I know. On Thursday we would say "lets have a sleepover on Friday. We would go home, ask our parents, then come back the next day with the answers. We had to be diligent in remembering the dates of our hangouts. Those were the day when if you told a friend to meet you at the mall, and they were an hour late, you left without them. It meant they were not coming. They had forgotten.

Yes, at this time there were land lines, and there was email. and email does include Messenger. But as a little kid, you can't spell. So email is useless. and, well, the rule was no email until we were, i think, 12. and when you had parents using the internet for word, it was almost impossible to be able to use the land lines.

What do you think about this? We all have cell phones (generalization), yet it seems to me like people are not getting closer together but far apart.

Its funny to me to think that back in the day when I was a kid, asking for an email address was socially acceptable. While asking for your number was not. But now asking for your number is acceptable, while asking for your email address is downright weird.

How do you think technology is going to improve in the future? Will we find something better than Text? I'm really big on the Hive-mind situation, where people become linked with electronics, and can send brain waves to other people. eventually I hope we will cut out electronics all together, and have a hive-mind where everyone knows what the other is thinking. everyone shares their knowledge, and everyone helps each other because you are everyone, and everyone is you.

But thats just a weird (awesome) theory of mine (and I love it).

I'd like to know your thoughts on the matter

~Jacoby

The Lonely Hearts Day ^,~

2011-02-14T09:13:00.000-08:00

I am not celebrating Valentines day. Because I don't have a Valentine to share it with. So instead I'm celebrating the Lonely Hearts Day ^.^

Where everyone without a date goes to the mall and laughs at everyone walking by and holding hands.
Telling yourself 'ha, I don't need that' while secretly inside you are going 'whhhhhhhhhhy!!! I want that so badly!!!!'

This is going to be a short post everybody.

To you I wish a happy Valentines Day if your in a relationship. and if your not, cherish your Lonely Heart. You only get single status for so long in your life! ^.^

до свидания! (do svidaniya) (otherwise known as goodbye in Russian)(or that thing Anastasia says to Rasputan at the end of the movie)

~Jacoby

My star is the limit

2011-02-10T00:01:00.000-08:00

Welcome to another addition of: Bwahaha my blog has just changed again!!!

I was getting way too depressed by the darkness of my last blog layout. It just wasn't really fun. Like at all.

So I ran off in search of that perfect layout.

After sifting through many images, I almost used this one. But it was really dark, and I decided against it.

Then I finally found it, the perfect one!

But it was really kind of small. and didn't quite work. So I did what I did with This Layout. I remade it into a complete picture. So the final result was this.

and this is how my blog looks now ^.^ Cool, aye?

I robbed a house. It was great!

2011-02-09T10:44:00.000-08:00

I spent these last 3 days hanging out with my best friend Andrew. Of course going to Andrews means

Video gaming
Movie watching
Lots of ramen
Pranks

Today I am only going to cover #4. Pranks.

Andrews other roomate, David, had to work on Monday, one of the days I was over there. He didn't get back until 8:30. So we decided to play a prank

At first (because it was storming so bad outside) we flipped off all the breakers and we were going to tell him the power went out. But I quickly came up with an even better idea. Something I have wanted to do for a loooooong time.

Rob a house.

So me, Andrew, and his girlfriend Amanda all tore through the house making massive mayhem and destruction. We knocked over bookshelves, we scattered books and dvds everywhere. we went through the closets pulling stuff out and tossing it on the floor. Basically, we made a HUGE mess.
(as a note, we were actually really gentle. Its not like we wanted anything broken.)

Well around the time David was supposed to get home, we placed a video camera where we could catch his reaction to this disaster.

When he got home he stepped in the doorway. turned off the lights. stopped. took off his glasses. put them back on. then whipped out his phone and called the cops. so of course Andrew and I jumped out laughing, and tried telling him it was all a joke.

He was not amused. Like at all. He told us he was going to leave for an hour and take a walk. and when he got home, if the house wasn't picked up, he was going to shank us.

So he left, and we got it all mostly picked up.

In the end, it was much fun! David thought it was funny, after everything had been picked up and he realized we had only made it look like a mess. and to make it all better, we have it ALL on camera. us destroying it, his reaction, and us putting it back together again. So I am totally making a video of it ^.^ Its hilarious!

That is what has happened these past 3 days. I hope to have a completed movie to show you all in the near future ^.^

Later!

The Vibe - Finals

2011-02-04T08:43:00.001-08:00

Tanisha Belnap - Live To Dance

2011-02-02T23:16:00.000-08:00

I tapped my pencil against the desk and sighed. This class was so beneath my level of study. School had started a mere two weeks earlier and here I was, a senior stuck in a Earth Science class 2 years below my grade. But hey, it was an easy free credit. Our teacher had just given us an assignment, and I hadn't started working on it yet. Not because it was too hard, but because it was too easy. I looked around the classroom at the others there. Everyone was in their own group, talking with friends, working on the assignment, or just messing around.
I looked back to the empty paper and named and dated it. I started reading from the open book beside me. A soft quiet sound reached my ears. A muffled sob. I looked up and located the source of the noise. A girl siting ahead of me. I had seen her come in earlier and had noticed she was new, but I hadn't noticed that she was alone. As I watched, I noticed that she was crying, and was trying to hide it. I thought about it for a second before making a choice. I stood up, scooping all of my stuff into my arms, went around the table, and sat in the chair next to her.
She looked up at me and I spoke to her
"Hey, how are you? Is everything okay?"
"Yeah, I'm fine" she replied quietly.
"Did you just start coming to this school? I haven't seen you before"
"I just moved here with my family. Today is my first day...." She trailed off.
"Thats pretty exciting! I remember when I first moved here, I didn't know anybody."
She wiped away some of her tears with her sleeve and gave a hiccup. I noticed that room had gone silent, and everyone was watching what was going on.
"I'm not really sure what to do with this assignment" I said, gesturing to the book we were supposed to be reading, "but you know, I bet we could get it done a lot faster if we worked on it as a team."
She smiled, "That would be cool"
We spent the rest of the class talking and finding the answers in the workbook. By the end of the class she was smiling and laughing, her tears a million miles away. When the bell rang we both got up and handed in our assignment to a teacher that beamed us a smile. We gathered our stuff and left out the door.
"Thank you" she said, as we parted ways. and then she was gone.
"Hey!" someone yelled into my ear as they put their arm around my shoulder, "Who's that?"
"Shes my new friend" I replied shrugging them off, "Her name is Tanisha"
---

I am so excited! I can't even tell you! One of my old friends from highschool, Tanisha Belnap, is a finalist on the show Live to Dance! I am so excited for her! She was on at 7, her group, the Vibe, competed against 6 other groups! I am praying that she wins! I have texted every single friend on my phone, and talked to every single person I could get ahold of! I really hope she wins! That would be fantastic! If she does win, I'm totally getting her some flowers or something as a congratulations!

Its just way too exciting ^.^ I can't believe I can ever say that I knew her! ^.^

Wish her luck!

Good Luck Tanisha! !!!!

(These are only the Semi-finals)

New Glee!

2011-02-01T08:14:00.000-08:00

If you guys don't hear from me in a while, its because I work 5 out of 7 days this week >.<,

But, I do have some good news!

That is right everybody! Glee!

On Feburary 6th prepare for the Sue Sylvester Bowl Shuffle! (Rumored to be one of the most expensive in Tv history)

Then two days later on Feburary 8th is Silly Love Songs!

2 Glee Episodes in 1 week! You should all be majorly thrilled!!! ^.^ I know I am!

Eerie connections

2011-01-27T12:54:00.000-08:00

Last night I was listening to the radio, changing from channel to channel. I heard these 3 songs in a row (or different stations all of them) and was struck by an eerie connection. Listen to them and see if you can catch it
(They are in the same order I heard them)

(This is one of the only Beatles songs I actually like)

(I absolutely LOVE the background dancers in the second round of the chorus)

Did you catch it? I noticed it during Fireflys. But when Christina Perri came on it became creepy.

Mary's Photoshoot

2011-01-26T10:21:00.000-08:00

Thank you Mary!!! I love your photoshoots! They always turn out so magical!!!
(The green haired boy is Corbyn. Marys boyfriend.)

Grimm's Fairy Tales Giveaway! (Because she loves us)

2011-01-25T10:10:00.000-08:00

To be honest, I have indeed heard of this fantastical book before! Its a:

A 1913

Color-illustrated

Rand McNally version of

Grimm's Fairy Tales

Illustrated by Hope Dunlap.

If that isn't enough to get your Rarehunter senses tingling, then I don't know what is!!!

Many of you know, that in games as well as in real life, I love finding and collecting rare, unusual, old, limited time, event only, items.

A 1913 fairy tale book certainly falls under this category!!!!

I am here today to tell you *clears throat*

That you have a chance to win it~!

That is right! All you have to do is visit a certain blog and follow the instructions from there! ^.~

Just click ANYWHERE on this blog post to find yourself at the BEST contest I have seen in 2 years!

Best of luck!

F*ckin' Perfect

2011-01-21T11:30:00.000-08:00

I have mentioned this numerous times, but I will say it again. There are two people in this world that have the biggest impact on my life. On the writing side is James Dashner. But on the musical side, its the most talented singer I will ever know - P!NK.

Everyone has an unofficial list of things they want to do before they die. On the very top of my list, topping every exciting experience, every person I have ever wanted to meet, I want to be able to shake P!NK's hand and tell her how much she means to me.

During one of the darkest moments of my life, she found me. Her songs inspired me to be myself. and amidst tears and scars, I became myself. I realized that I have the power to be me. That I don't have to limit myself, I can do anything I want.

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Motorcycle's in the parking lot

Revving their engines and it just won't stop

Matches the noise screaming in my head

Houston, I think we got a problem

Where does everybody go when they go?

They go so fast, I don't think they know

We hate so fast and we love too slow

London, I think we got a problem

And when I think about it

I just can't think about it

I try to drink about it

I keep spinning

Ave Mary A, where did you go? Where did you go?

How did you know to get out of a world gone mad?

Help me, let go of the chaos around me

The devil that hounds me, I need you to tell me

Child, be still, child, be still

Broken hearts all around the spot

I can't help thinking that we lost the plot

Suicide bomber and a student shot

Tokyo, I think we got a problem

But for that they have gotta pill

If that don't kill you then the side effects will

If we don't kill each other then the side effects will

Cape Town, I think we got a problem

Ave Mary A, where did you go? Where did you go?

How did you know to get out of a world gone mad?

Help me, let go of the chaos around me

The devil that hounds me, I need you to tell me

Child, be still

If the darkest hour comes before the light

Where is the light? Where is the light?

If the darkest hour comes before the light

Where is the light? Where is the light?

Where is the light? Yeah

Ave Mary A, where did you go? Where did you go?

How did you know to get out of a world gone mad?

Help me, help me, let go of the chaos around me

The devil that hounds me, I need you to tell me

Child, be still, child, be still, child, be still

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Ave Mary A is the song that inspired me the most during this time.

When it was dark, and I was alone with only dark thoughts to keep me company, I would play her music. A final lifeline before I fell into insanity and did something I would surely regret.......

If it was not for this one person, I would not be here today. I owe P!NK my life.

and now, when life is again getting confusing, I find myself want to fall back on old habits.

and again I have have found the most comfort in a women who will never know I exist. Her new songs, Raise your glass, F*cking Perfect, Heartbreak Down.....They all mean so much to me.

In particular, like Ave Mary A meant so much a few months ago, her song F*cking Perfect has the most meaning to me right now. I've been playing it on repeat, listening to it. Drinking in the magic of her voice.

Well last night she released the music video for it. It has so many parallels to my own life. It means more to me than I think people will ever know.

Pink - Fucking Perfect (Official Music Video)

(Warning: This video DOES contain ideologically sensitive materials. I mean, just look at the title. So don't watch it if you get offended easy. Because to be honest, I don't really care. At the very least, skip the first 10 seconds)

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me!

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred...such a tired game
It's enough! I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same

Oh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing

You're f*ckin' perfect to me

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that..?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby..!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me
You're perfect, you're perfect!
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're fuckin' perfect to me...

Pink, thank you so much. You are my biggest hero, and I can't wait till the day I can tell you to your face that you inspire me every day of my life. If it was not for you, I don't know where I would be. But that doesn't matter, I am here today. and it is all because you you.

Sad broken heart

2011-01-17T15:28:00.001-08:00

Sad broken heart let me come and dry your tears. Mend those wounds you hold so dear. The only reminder of a distant past where you were loved and beauty lasts.

Let me whisper words in your ears. Let me tell you I’m still here. Let me hold your hand, and let us race across the land. Let us adventure where no ones been.

Sad broken heart let me come and take you away. I know a place where you can stay. Pure white clouds above a shore. You can stretch your wings and finally soar.

We’ll fly far from your old scars. We’ll find peace and touch the stars. Close your eyes and drift to dreams. Under night sky’s and moonbeams.

Sad broken heart let me be your knight. Let me be your guiding light. Let me show you your alive. That your heart has been revived.

I’ll be here forever. I’ll see you through your every endeavor. Leave your sorrows and tears at last. For they have already become the past.

Perfect smiling heart let me be your friend. I will stay with you always, till the end.

My New Years Resolution

2010-12-31T12:22:00.000-08:00

This years revolutions to good to be true.
Simply this year, I want to find You.

So, my New Years Resolutions. Yeah, A boring topic for most of you. So all you impatient people can all just scroll down and read the bolded, highlighted, underlined, size 14 words and get a general picture of whats going on. For the rest of you more awesome people, ^.~ , read on.

First I would like to say this: Every years since I was a little kid my parents would always have us write out our new years resolutions. So I'd sit there, pencil and paper in hand, and just write down all the 'good' stuff. I want to be nicer, I want to be taller, I really want this toy, ect. In the end, the list would look like a Christmas list/prayer. I never really understood what it was supposed to mean. I just did it anyways.

But now I'm older, and I have finally realized what a New Years Resolution is. It's a chance for self improvement. A chance to make yourself better in a year. 365 days of striving to be a better person than you were the year before.

The new year is a chance to set new goals. Its a chance to start new projects.

Did you know that there are 3 separate times when its the best to start new goals?

The first is a Monday. Monday is the start of a new week, so its also the best time to start a new goal. Most of your Monday Goals are short term, that turn into long term. Like if you were going to quit smoking. Start on a Monday, see how it goes for a week, then start a new week. Mondays are great for starting goals.

The next is the First of a month. Again, its because its the start of a new month. Which feels like the start of a new idea. I think the first of the month is the best time to start exercise programs. Because each month you can check your progress and see how well you did for 30 days.

Finally, the absolute best time to start a new goal, is the New Year. Literally, it is a new year. You suddenly find yourself on day 1. You have an entire year laid out before your eyes. A chance to do everything and anything you have ever wanted. The New Year is a chance to do something that will forever change your life.

For example, I want to be a published author making a bazzilion dollars, world famous where everyone from that random kid on the street to Lady Gaga wants to talk to me. Now that is the absolute peak. The ending thats never there, but always strived for. I realize that it will be extremely difficult getting to that stage of popularity. But that doesn't mean I'm ever going to give up on it. As long as I believe I'm going to get there, it will happen.

This is why, for this new year, I am going to put forth some real effort to change myself into a better person. Into someone I want to be.

I have separated this list into 3 main goals, and 7 little ones.

My 3 Core Goals

Write: I want to write at the very least 1 page a day. Because at the very least that is 365 pages written. Another step closer to ~~world fame~~ being a ~~world famous~~ published author. ~~With world fame.~~

P90X: P90X is a 90 day exercise program. 1 hour every day. The end result? A sexy toned body and a ton of self esteem! To be popular, you have to feel popular. This all starts with feeling good about yourself.

No Sugar: Some people laugh. But I'm being serious. I have a friend who can't have any sugar. none at all. She is always watching what she eats, and whats in it. My curiosity about this lead me into much food related research. In the end, this was my finding: Did you know, that sugar is considered a drug? It has so few health benefits, and so many health problems, that the bad outweighs the good and its considered a drug. I mean look at it. Its highly addictive, and does so much harm! yet almost every single food we eat is laced with it! Even drinks! Sugar adds to weight gain, bad teeth, even bad bone structure! It has so many problem! But don't take my word for it, research it yourself. Decided for yourself. In the end, this is my decision, and I'm going to stick by it. No Sugar. Period. and especially no Soda!!!

My 7 Sub Goals
(I assigned each of them a day because its always fun to have structure)

Dance Monday - I want to be a better dancer. So I'm going to take dance classes, and devote an hour on Monday to dance practice.

Piano Tuesday - I want to be a better pianist. I'm going to take a piano class, devote an hour on Tuesday, and learn to read music and play better, faster, and cleaner.

Cleaning Wednesday - I want to make sure that my room stays clean. I am going to use Wednesday to Tidy up my room.

Sketch Thursday - I want to be a better artist. So I'll take a drawing class, and spend some time on Thursday sketching.

Friend Friday - I want to be better friends with the friends I have. that is why I will try and spend every Friday with a friend.

Vocal Saturday - I want to be a better singer. Vocal lessons. Saturday will be for practice (though I sing everyday, so whatever)

Relaxing Sunday - I want to be more applicative to the world around me. and I want to be more relaxed. I'm going to work on letting go of stress. In the words of Dharma "Put it in a bubble, and blow it away"

These are my New Years Resolutions. You may have your own. Ours might even be very similar!

But in the end, this is what I want to work on.

Now, in parting words, I would like to ask this: Could you please, in the comments, 'sign' your name saying that I have your support these goals? We would always pass around our lists, and have each other sign them, saying we would help them along and encourage them when times got hard. As this is digital, I feel a digital signature will work just as well.

Thank you everyone, and have a grand new year!

Time for a psychoanalysis

2010-12-30T11:01:00.000-08:00

Does this picture make you think I'm weird? It was made from:

4 - cinamon bears (feet)(except they had white chocolate on them. we make them and hand them out as gifts)
2 - doughnut holes (body)
2 - grapes (head)
2 - dry spagetti noodles (arms, legs, neck, spears)
1 - Pepperoni (blood)
2 - icing tips (hats)
4 - bits of gummy bears (hands)

I got a creative idea to use gummy bears as feet, and well, this is the end result.

So its time for all you shrinks out there to tell me: What do you think I am trying to say with this scene?

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Also, If you haven't already, vote to the right! ^.^

Merry Christmas!!! ^.^

2010-12-25T10:15:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas everyone!!!

Thank you all for this wonderful day! The bright white snow! A tree the glows! Gifts, friends, family ^.^

Its all come together to create this one special day! ^.^

Thank you!

Changing Color

2010-12-23T23:14:00.000-08:00

Okay so, this past 2 weeks have been pretty cool when it comes to changing who I am.

This is what I looked like 2 weeks ago on the 9th.

I kept that style for a little while longer, then decided to bleach it! Woots!

This is the bleach. Its really painful.

This is after the bleach. Its really...yellow.

So we bleached it again!

and It turned out to be this! Woots! White hair! ^.^

(Which I have had before!) See?

But then, I decided to cut it off. Using P!NK as my inspiration,

I chopped it off in a Pixie Cut. then dyed it Silver.

So now it looks like this! ^.^

So what if I like changing my hair like other people change clothes. It makes me who I am. ^.^

~Jacoby

Dear Ms. Magenta Carmina Roberts

2010-12-21T15:20:00.000-08:00

Thanks Bettina, I'm so glad we are still friends!

Through thick and thin

Early mornings and late nights

Breezy days and soaring kites

Story ideas, and enticing idyllic stories

This doesn’t make sense.

But neither do we.

How could we still be

Such great friends

Still doesn’t make sense.

But what sense doesn’t it make?

This really doesn’t rythme.

But neither do we.

What if….

This was how it was meant to be?

Our story a confusing history

All that matters now is the final result.

I’m glad I know you and I wouldn’t trade it for the world

This ones for you Bettina! ^.~ Its been 2 complete years since we met!

Your so sweet and just so true! ^.^ Bettina, your always you!

(Response to her 2 posts - Silly Stuff and For My Best Friend)

My 3.5 Obsessions

2010-12-18T10:27:00.000-08:00

This is the top shelf of my bookshelf. I only put the things that are of utmost importance to me on the top shelf.

1st) I am the biggest .hack fan you will ever know! I have read every book, seen every show, played every game, heard every song. I love it, from the awesome, the better, and the best!!

If you are ever going to get into that series, start with the anime .hack//SIGNS. That was the very first .hack anything ever made. Then I would get into the first 4 PS2 games (Infection, Mutation, Outbreak, and Quarantine) From there you can really explore around as much as you want, read the other books, play the other games, watch the other shows.

This universe DOES have an order it goes in, but as long as you have seen SIGNS, played the first set of the original games (the 4 I talked about earlier) and played the G.U. set, the rest is just very interesting background and side stories.

In the end .hack is the most complex universe I have ever encountered. Every single person is intricately connected to the next. Its amazing

2nd) My second obsession of course, is Glee. Whats not to love about a highly dramatized show about a highschool Glee club? Include good music, fun characters, and engaging plots and you have Glee. Oh, don't forget Chris Colfer. mmm boy hes HAWT!

3rd) James Dashner - James Dashner is my third obsession. Some of you sit back and wonder "Why is James Dashner your third obsession?" I am now going to tell you why the one and only James is my third obsession.

Easter morning, 2004, my family went to my aunts house for Easter. We went egg hunting, and came back inside to find a basket for each one of us. Inside mine, next to some colored pencils, were the first 2 Jimmy Fincher books: A Door in the Woods, and A Gift of Ice. I read those within the week and thought they were pretty hot stuff! except the covers. I taped paper over them because I was embarrassed about the weird it looked.

A little while later, I read the 3rd book (Tower of Air) when it came out. and Finally, a while later, I read the 4th and last book War of the Black Curtain.

The War of the Black Curtain had the best ending of any book I have ever read in my entire life. Amen. The End. Don't dispute it. Lets move on.

This series had so much imagination! From the Shield, to the Gift of Ice, to the odd characters, and coooool places!

But this story meant something much much more to me. After reading that series, I realized anything and everything is possible with writing. I started writing my own little stories, and I started dreaming about becoming a published author.

Because to be honest, James Dashner is my biggest hero. I admire him more than he will EVER know. He is the one who inspired me to start writing. He is the reason this blog is in existence. I have met James Dashner on multiple occasions, and he is literally that nicest person I have ever known. He is genuine. he cares about his readers. He is funny, and he honestly wants to see you succeed with your life.

James Dasher, I am forever in your debt. You are the single and sole reason I decided to start writing in the first place. You are the biggest inspiration in my writing and my life, and the only hero I have ever had the pleasure of meeting.

I will always be your #1 fan!

~Jacoby Nielsen, Future Author

Whats this?

2010-12-17T11:01:00.000-08:00

^.^

PS, I can't read sheet music

Also, please remember to vote on the left~! Just pick 10 that sound cool!

This one is for you!

2010-12-16T11:01:00.000-08:00

So, dear blog readers, I would like to know,

What do you want for Christmas?

What is it that you think would bring a smile to your face if it appeared under your tree mysteriously wrapped saying it was from ~~God~~ Santa?

So what is it? Tell me in the comments! I want to know! ^.~

Also, please vote on the poll to the right! ^.^

Song of the Day
(This song reminds me of Q)
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Anne Little - Fly Me Away

What story would like to hear about most?

2010-12-15T12:01:00.000-08:00

So, with the last poll I found out this

So you guys like Black and Yellow the best? That makes me think of a bumble bee....or a really ugly bathroom.

But it was fun, a little experiment. This one however is something I really do want input on.

I have a new poll up, Its multiple choice, but I'm asking if you please choose at least/most 10. I am going to narrow down the winners in a week, and then the winners from the next, until by new years I will have the project I will work on for the next year.

This is going to be helpful to me because I need to stop writing around, and actually stick with 1 project until its completion.

This will be much apriciated! So please please vote on the ones you think sound the coolest! Thank you!!!

Song of the Day
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Glee Cast - Taking Chances

Oh Christmas Tree?

2010-12-14T14:57:00.000-08:00

So, I changed my blog layout from this

To this!

Its simple, Christmasy, and doesn't look too bad.

Song of the Day
(Warning: It is weird and may offensive to some people)
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Lady Gaga - Christmas Tree

Voyage of the Burlesque Mall Treader

2010-12-10T11:29:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was pretty exciting! ^.^ I got to hang out with my friend David. Right now he is going to collage, so I don't see him very often.

Well yesterday he came over and we decided to go to the mall.

We went to the Orem mall, and just walked around. We visited a few game stores, a music store, then just walked around till we got hungry and went to Arbys in the mall.

We decided to go to the Provo mall instead. So we went there, did the same thing, just looked at a bunch of awesome stuff. After a while we decided to go and see a movie. I swear Tron Legacy came out on the 7th! But I guess it doesn't come out till the 17th. So we saw Burlesque.

Burlesque was actually pretty good. I LOVE musicals, and this one fits the musical persona.

There really is no way to explain that movie without making it sound weird. So here is a trailer to it

After that we decided to see a different movie. The Warriors Way. That movie was so awfully boring that we walked out and got ticket exchanges. So we instead decided to see Narnia at midnight.

So we waited and waited and waited.....and waited. then for good measure, we waited some more.

Finally it was midnight! yay! We went in, got some good seats, and waited for the movie to start.

In the previews we saw one for Transformers: Dark of the Moon. It actually looks REALLY interesting! yay! ^.^

After a TON of looking, I finally found the trailer!

After that we saw Narnia. Sadly I have only ever read the first 2 of those books. So Prince Caspian. and Voyage of the Dawn Treader are totally new to me.

and they are AWESOME! ^.^ Dawn Treader was really really good! ^.^

I'm so glad we saw it....at midnight....I'm still tired! ^.^

Guess who

2010-12-09T10:05:00.000-08:00

Shooting Stars

2010-12-08T00:43:00.000-08:00

You won’t die, for here we are.

Bright as light, we’re shooting stars.

Race across the heavens sky

Glittery glows in lovers eyes.

Radiant gold, like crystal suns

Our bright flare is now among

Other souls, just like our fire,

With purest hearts and loves aspire.

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A response to the last line in my friends poem Will you...?

"If I die, will you live.....and not turn back?"

Part 1 - I will....

I will....

2010-12-08T00:38:00.000-08:00

When you wake up, I’ll be waiting.

When you walk, I’ll hold your hand.

When you ask, I’ll tell the truth.

When you bleed, I’ll cry for you.

When you cry, I’ll dry those tears.

When you’re blind, I’ll be your guide.

When you’re cold, I’ll hold you closer.

When you’re my day, I’ll be your sunrise

When you fall, I won’t let go.

When your lonely, I’ll come back.

When you’re my love, I’ll be yours too.

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My friend wrote a poem, this was my response to it. (His poem here - Will you....?)

Part 2 - Shooting Stars

Draw With Me

2010-12-05T11:35:00.001-08:00

This is one of the coolest, sweetest, saddest little clip I have ever seen....

Separated by an unbreakable wall of glass.....

Project 3: The Move

2010-12-04T10:05:00.000-08:00

A while ago I mentioned I was working on 3 projects. The first being Drawing. The second, P90X. This is the third, Moving.

I have given this much thought, and planning with friends, so here is my idea.

The idea started with Wal-mart. After you work there for 6 months, you can request a transfer to a Wal-mart anywhere else in America.

My plan is this: I wanted to move from place to place every 6 months.

I realize I'm pretty trapped in Utah. While I love it here, love the mountains, the people, how beautiful it is, I still feel that I am missing out on the rest of the world. I want to see New York's towering skyscrapers, Florida's beautiful bright sunshine weather, go back and see more of Washington's gorgeous trees!

I want to experience life.

Meet all its glories with open arms.

Besides, everyone wants an adventure!

Now, every single person I have ever told this plan has at least one idea that almost shoots it down. There is always another obstacle to overcome.

Mainly, the two biggest problems I could see were these

1) It would be really really lonely. Because I would make friends, then leave them, just to do it all over again.

2) Finding places to live.

But I have found 2 fixes for this.

Fix 1) I get a traveling companion. While I have had 2 takers, both of them are in collage and don't want to leave until they are graduated in 2 years. I refuse to wait 2 entire years! But that's not that big of a problem really, there are some other people that say that would be fun enough that they would go with.

Fix 2) This is really an awful fix, but whateva. A friend suggested getting a *shudder* house-car-thingy. While those really aren't that bad, it totally isn't my idea of an awesome time. I would personally rather move into a new apartment every time, because part of the adventure would be a new home every 6 months! Living in a house-car would defeat that purpose. but if it came down to it, it would work.

Of course doing this would take major planning! I've planned a lot of it, but still, there is a lot more to go.

For now this is still an idea. A Project. and I may never do it, but it sure would be fun!

and the best part, I would write my heart out while traveling. Imagine all the inspiration, new places to see, new people, new personalities and customs! It would totally help me with my goal to be a published Author! ^.^

But like I said, for all of you that might be worried, its just an idea.

There you go, Project 3: The Move.

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Song of the Day:
Britney Spears - Circus

Did you know that this video alone has 64 Million views? That is just one of her songs. She is arguably the most popular pop star in history. Long live Britney Spears - Queen of Pop.

Why Can't I Cry?

2010-12-02T12:00:00.000-08:00

I don't understand. I used to cry over everything. Even just making eye contact with an adult was cause for my eyes to water up to the point of almost crying.

But it's been 2 years since I really had a good cry. I had a spell back in May when I left my best friend Andrew. Where right as I was leaving I burst out crying. That was the last time.

I can feel the pressure in my heart, and I know that crying will take it all away from me. But it isn't working. No matter what happens, Ripping up another friendship, seeing a sad movie, reading a sad book, listening to a sad song. No matter what I can't cry. Sometimes I can feel the tears start to come, they seem to just stay where can't reach them.

I used to cry so easily. It was a release. I felt better afterwards. I remember crying in class because my friend Ashley said that her and Andrew had a secret that I didn't know about (7th grade). I remember crying in my room because of something my mom said. I remember looking into the eyes of my teachers and feeling my eyes well up. Or standing in front of a class giving a report, I was always on the verge of tears.

What has changed? Have I put up a mental barrier? Does something in my mind tell me that crying is weak? That I shouldn't do it?

2 Years ago coincides with something that happened around that time. My journal gives me the date January 27 2009. Something that was completely life changing.

Since then I just don't cry. I can only remember two times after that. When Suhei was mean to me at work. and the day I moved out of Andrews house.

Sometimes I think I am broken......

Can you cry?

Glee 2:9 - Special Education

2010-12-01T13:17:00.000-08:00

This episode went by really fast, and honestly didn't really catch my attention that much. I have a few comments (Short for one in my life!)

1st) I really liked seeing Kurt and Rachel talking to each other like normal people. There wasn't that hate vibe between them that you have seen throughout the series. Rachels character is seeing some development ^.~

2nd) I'm getting really tired of Will. He lost his cool like 3 times in this episode.

3rd) Good job for you Emma. Wait? Did I just say good job? Scratch that. What were you thinking!?!?! This is to the writers, not Emma. You guys decided to just marry her off? You don't even give an explanation or anything! Its just BAM, I'm married. That was some pretty poor writing on your part. Please, just step it up, okay?

4th) The whole Rachel/Finn thing is starting to get on my nerves. Finns dumping her was uncalled for.

5th) I give Puck two thumbs up since he said he would not hurt Finn again like that.

6th) Rachels comment of Sam/Quinn being Ken/Barbie was actually pretty funny

7th) I can't wait for Kurt to default back to New Directions. But something tells me that might not be for a LONG while. Like maybe even season 3. But you never know, they could pull out some surprises!

8) There was no Beiste or Sue in this episode. Kind of sad since I wanted to know what Sue has been doing since resigning as principle. Then again that leads back to Figgins. What is he doing now also?

This episode gets a 8/10. or a B+. It wasn't horrible, but it wasn't memorable either. It was just there.

Until next time with A Very Glee Christmas! ^.~ The songs to that one were leaked a very long time ago, so go ahead and find them on Youtube! ^.^ I particularly like the one with Darren Criss (Blaine) and Chris Colfer (Kurt) singing the duet song Baby It's Cold Outside!

Here is your preview for the next episode! ^.~

Its too bad that the next episode ** *** **** *** ***** ******** *****.....

Where are you now?

2010-11-30T12:00:00.000-08:00

I would like to dedicate this post to friends. At least to past friends.

There are a bunch of people that I was really good friends with growing up. You know? Every single grade had people coming and going. I have kept in contact with almost everyone I used to know.

But some of them have slipped through the cracks...... There are a few that I have been looking for, for a while now, with no luck

Simon - In 5th Grade one of my best friends in that class was a boy named Simon. I don't remember what his last name is, unfortunately. During recess we would 'play' Dragonball Z. Our group of about 6 boys would all take on a roll from the show (Around the Tournament before Buu for those that know DBZ)

Yeah, well anyways, me and Simon would always be Goten and Trunks from the show. In the show they were best friends, alot like how we were. (I was always Goten, the kid with black hair. He was always Trunks, the kid with purple hair)

Near the end of 5th grade, Simon was going move away. We were going to hang out one last time before then. I remember the day so clearly....I was so excited for it! I waited and waited, and right before 3:00 came around, me and a brother got in a fight. I was told I couldn't go. 5 minutes later he showed up and while feeling like I was going to cry I told him I got in trouble and couldn't hang out with him. I watched him get back in his familys old truck, and drive away.....

That was the last time I ever saw him........

I have been looking for Simon ever since. But I have not heard a single thing about him....even if I could just know his last name, I would do anything to find him. He meant something really special to me.

I was going to include the names of everyone else I'm looking for, but for now I'm going to have to save them for another day....

Black Friday

2010-11-29T11:00:00.000-08:00

Gah! Black Friday is one of the worst ideas ever invented!!!! I worked a 9 hour shift that day, and it was a madhouse!!!

imagine a TON of people, in one store, all fighting over the same TV/DVD player combo. or a laptop. or a video game. or whatever catches their interest. No joke, this is how Black Friday went. (Phone rings are people calling the store. everyone else is a costumer.

Hey, excuse me-
can you help m-
Where are your-
are you sold out of the-
my purse is miss-
*phone rings* do you still have-
have you seen my child-
STOP LOOKING THROUGH MY CART-
*phone rings* hello? I've called 3 times-
will this price go down anymore-
i need some socks-
i need a jacket-
*phone rings* Electronics please-
where are the strawberries-
*phone rings* I need electronics-
does this ad really mean-
*phone rings* Transfer me to electronics!-
*display knocked over*
looks like clean up on isle-
wow dude, how did you manage-
im so glad i don't have to clean that-
*phone ringing* electronics-
why isnt-
where is-
how-
when-
*carts crashing together*
get out of my way!-
screw you!-
*children crying*
I wanted the-
theres no more-
i don't want-
*phone rings* do you still have your-
hey, you-
listen closely-
*another display knocked over*
haha sorry dude-
pick that up! I cant move my cart!-
i can tell you where to stick your cart!-
*censored for small children*
*more censoring*
*rude hand gesture*
get outta my way!-
*phone rings* i need a-
*phone rings* and a-
*phone rings* this is me again-
*phone rings* still have-
why in the-
I know you have more in the back!-
Go get some!-
take me to the-
will you tell that person-
The child just-
can i just take this?-
*phone rings* I have called like 7 times!-
*check clock*
*only 15 minutes have passed*
*sigh* only 8.45 hours left.....

That was pretty much 15 minutes of that day. There were things being knocked over, purses being stolen, children going missing, items being stolen, the phone ringing off the hook on all 8 lines. people swearing at each other. arguments breaking out.

but still the most annoying thing EVER is the phone calls! Come on people! If you want to shop on Black Friday how about you just come in and check for yourself. We are not magic, if you ask us a price we do not know.

and NO. we do NOT have it in the back. We are not secretly holding out on you for kicks and giggles. Every single thing we have is already on the sales floor!!!!!!!! EVERY. SINGLE. THING.

and stop calling. Really. its annoying. if you want that Lego set, come in and find it yourself.

Black Friday was the LONGEST day of my life. well, my working life.

It was Crazy!!!

(A pretty cool music vid. Advent Children totally rocks!)

Happy Thanks-Turkey Day

2010-11-25T10:32:00.000-08:00

Yeah, you all knew this was coming. I mean, its a staple of most holidays to post something about it, right?

So Happy ThanksTurkey Day!!! I'm going to list 10 things of the top of my head that I am thankful for. But Its not going to be family, or friends, or food. Of course I am thankful for those!

I'm thankful for the Sky, and Clouds. Warm sunshine, new underwear. I'm thankful for sandy beaches, and the odd miracle we call Rain. I'm grateful for music. Definitely Music. Must makes my day brighter, it sets my mood, and its amazing. I'm thankful for the hottest man on earth - Chris Colfer. (I can say him because he isn't family, or really even a friend....yet) Chris Colfer is an inspiration to me, and someone I look up to alot! Also, hes totally talented! Lets see, that list makes 8. 2 more!

I'm thankful for books and authors! Both of which are always amazing!!! ^.^

This is my short weird Thanksgiving post! ^.^

And I really am grateful for friends and family ^.^ You guys all rock!

Later all!

~Jacoby

Glee 2:8 - Furt

2010-11-24T13:39:00.000-08:00

Wow. This episode was the best episode I have seen in the entire series of Glee.

There was a lot about this episode I was impressed about.

First, I was very impressed by New Directions closeness with each other. They are all so close. Best friends. I was so proud of them that they would stand up to Karofsky. It was so awesome to see them all team up and tell him to back off Kurt. Especially Mike and Sam. Well, and Artie.

This leads up to point Two. I was so very extremely impressed with Sue Sylvester in this episode! She actually cared, and listened, and promised to do whatever it took to stop the bullying. Even resigning so she could be back out in the halls. Sue has shown a caring side of her in this episode that is just astounding!

This episode saw a lot of character development! It was so impressive!

Third, the wedding of Burt and Carole was absolutely beautiful! I loved the Glee cast singing Marry You by Bruno Mars. I've been listening to it on repeat. ^.^

Also, I really liked their rendition of Just The Way You Are (also by Bruno Mars). That song means something a bit more special to me since a girl-friend of mine says it reminds her of me. ^.^

Still, it was so sweet of Finn to dedicate it to Kurt. and to dance with him. I felt like crying at this scene. It was just so touching to me.
Continuing, I actually really liked Sues dress for her own wedding. It was just so Sue. and it really was beautiful.

Sue had exponential character growth in this episode. It doesn't mean I expect her to be a nice person from now on. But it shows that she is smart and knows when its time to get serious.

There was one big problem I had with Furt. and that was the fact that Kurt left New Directions in the end. I felt it was a huge slap in the face to everyone that helped him out. I felt if he had stayed, they would have become an even closer group. Standing up for each other is the best way to build trust and friendship. Also, I felt even though Karofsky was coming back, he would know not to pick on Kurt. He has just gotten both expelled, and he fought with most of the Glee guys. Without a doubt he would know to leave Kurt well alone. With Kurt leaving it tears a huge hole in the Glee clubs 'family', while also tells Karofsky that he is still the top dog, even though he knows that the Glee club is a powerhouse that could bring him down.

However in the end this episode is literally my most favorite out of the entire series. Its predecessor being Preggers since I liked to see Chris dancing the Single Ladies.

Very well rounded, sweet, and full of good emotions.

Ryan Murphy, you outdid yourself with this script! and Carol Banker, it was directed beautifully. A+ on both of your report cards! You should be proud!

I will see you all next week with the episode mark Special Education! It's going to be a musical explosion with a confirmed 7 songs being sung! The highlights of which are Don't Cry for Me Argentina being sung by both Kurt and Rachel in a fashion I think is going to be like Defying Gravity. (I've Had) The Time of My Life. Hey, Soul Sister being sung by Blaine! Also, Valerie being sung by Santana. ^.~ Enjoy the sneak peak! Lastly, Dog Days Are Over

LAAAAAAAATER all you awesome peoples you!

~Jacoby

What I've Been Working On

2010-11-21T11:24:00.000-08:00

I realize I have posted every day this week! That must be a new record or something, since I don't plan it or anything.

So, I have been working on making "Pages" for my blog. Just some things for fun. So you might notice just under the Header, there are 4 Tabs

Author Gossip - Just the main page

Past Layouts - Since 08 I have started taking screen shots of my layouts. I have finally compiled them all for your amusement.

Current Projects - Under construction right now, as I don't have enough time to give them all a teaser. But still, some of the names are cool ^.~

Poems - I have written so many, I thought it would be fun to have a link to them all in the same place. Its fun to look back ^.^

Also, today is the first Sunday I have had off since working at Wal-mart! So I actually get to spend it with my family ^.^

More Also, Did you guys see the poll in the sidebar? I think its pretty awesome! ^.^ Right now the "Colors" question is just there for show. I'm actually going to have some serious ones in the future.

Later~!

Halloween Is Here Again! Muhahaha!

2010-11-20T11:56:00.000-08:00

Yeeeeehaaaaa! I'm so excited its hard to put it into words!!!

I was able to reverse most of the 'harm' I inflicted on my blog when I made the background invisible!

And because of this I was able to finally post the Halloween theme I wanted! ^.^ Yeah! Party!!!

Halloween is STILL my most favorite holiday ever! "We'll celebrate Halloween on Christmas"

Yeah, thats what I'm going to do ^.^

So here we go! he original image is pretty cool ^.~ Aye?

I'm so glad I got this finished in time! ^.^

Cya all later!

Trick or Treat!

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

2010-11-19T12:47:00.000-08:00

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows was one of the best movies I have seen all year!

Seriously it was amazing!

I loved the Locket scene, when Ron has to destroy it while facing his worst fears.

And the ministry scene! Ron really has become the comic relief, and his role in this movie was very funny!

I also really liked the Godrics Hollow scene. It was very well played out!

Honestly, I don't want to say too much because I don't want to ruin it for anyone out there. But it was very very good!

Oh, Bellatrix is still one of the best villains EVER!

and, there was a rumor flying around that there was a 'nude scene' where Harry and Hermione danced together. Totally a lie people! I bet someone put that up on facebook for a laugh and had it expand into something HUGE. Because it is TOTALLY not real. Never happens.

Frozen

2010-11-18T11:39:00.000-08:00

I saw the movie Frozen last night. It. Was. Awful.

Don't see it. I think it has officially become my number 1 hated movie ever.

It was just very long, very repetitive. and someone got eaten by wolves O.o, after that scene I was like "okay, I'm done" and we watched the rest of the movie on fast forward. It was just one of those movies where you walk away feeling dirty inside.

So yeah, DON'T SEE IT!!!!!

But I will give them some credit, the cover looked cool.

In other gleek news,

Furt will feature Just The Way You Are and Marry You by Bruno Mars. Its hasn't been announced who is singing it, as its VERY under wraps.

Also, they have announced that in Episode 11 (Unnamed for now) They are going to have a Micheal Jackson Thriller mashup with another (unnanounced) song

Also, another song by Katy Perry! and a song by the Black Eyed Peas! (Please be I Gotta Feeling!!)

and in Episode 9 (Special Education) Kurt will be singing Don't Cry For Me Argentina. Something I'm really looking forward too! But then again, Rachel Berry is also, so maybe its going to be like the Defying Gravity song! Where they are both competing! This time I bet he will win!

So yeah, I look forward to all of these songs! ^.^

and remember, DON'T SEE FROZEN!!!!

I can play this on the piano! ^.^

Glee 2:7 - The Substitute

2010-11-17T13:17:00.000-08:00

I don't have much to day about this episode. Either my infatuation with it is ending, or their writing is starting to stagnate.....

I'm thinking its the second option.

This episode featured a well known (i guess) singer. Who honestly, for how well she is supposedly known, I actually don't know her. But it really doesn't matter, she has a very fun personality, and I'm already a fan of hers.

Edit: Wait, I figured out where I have seen her before. She is Pepper off of Ironman.

This episode was about, well, nothing.

A strain of some sickness breaks out accross the school and Mr. Figgins the principle gets sick and leaves Sue as the new principle. Then Will gets sick leaving Holly Holiday in charge of his spanish class and by associations, the Glee club.

I will admit, the little glee kids were SO cute! I remember watching something about them on Hulu, and they were just too adorable! So that gets an A+ on the creative scale.

Also, Terrys advances are still coming across a little bit too creepy for my taste. Relationships in this show are totally unreal. After getting a divorce, Will is the only one acting NORMAL in that situation. Terry keeps trying to get him back. But to what end? If she were to get him back, then what? Suddenly their married again and she would be totally happy? Yeah. There is no end goal

and now Sue has complete power, and what does she use it for? To take away tatter tots from school lunches? Wow Sue, that sure is a mastermind plan! Makes me wonder if you came up with it yourself, or if you had some help.

It was totally lame! Come on guys! This is Sue!!! She has become the new Chuck Norris and your making her take away tatter tots? Introduce something dangerously crazy! Like having the school suddenly become like a prison. Change the name of the school. Build a giant statue of yourself. Become the next Umbridge! Make your own 'educational decrees'!

This episode surprisingly did not feature Emma in it. Which was very surprising to me, with her germaphobe self she would fit in at least SOMEWHERE even just a side joke. But knowing you guys by now, on the next episode she might say something like she hid in her house all week to avoid it or something like that. or maybe Carls house. Who knows

Also, the whole Kurt/Blaine thing has just become a dead weight. I'm sorry, but that is NOT how dates go. EVER. We do not talk about things like that. We are just like everyone else.

Honestly, this is an example on how Glee takes things to their upmost extreme. Lets just take a look all the extreme stereotypes

You have Kurt who is so totally flamingly gay that your surprised the people next to him don't erupt in a homo'tastic fire of fabulous proportions.

Then you have the bully, who is just the poster child of a prick. He shoves people, yells at them. oh, and he is secretly insecure once you make it through the miles of gruff thick skin.

You have Santana, a girl whos a hoe and puts out for everyone.

Next to Racheal, a girl who never puts out even after dating someone for like a year.

Britteny is the "Blond" of the show, acting totally and completely mental. But I will forgive them of this stereotype, as she is absolutely hilarious!

Puck the Rude buff jock/punk

Finn the nice jock

Artie the Cripple

Mercedes is the 'black' one of the group. Who is always fashionable in a 'black' sort of way. and likes fried foods.

Tina the emo/oddball

and of course Quinn, the head cheerleader

These are all stereotypes taken to the extreme extreme!

well, back to The Substitute. I'd give it a solid B. It didn't really hold my attention. it added a new character and a new plot twist....but both were very weak.

I will however say I liked the Singing in the Rain/Umbrella mash-up. It was pretty good.

Until the 23rd! with the episode: Furt

P90X

2010-11-16T01:09:00.000-08:00

So, a few days ago I mentioned that I was working on 3 projects. Well here is project 2: P90X

Most of you, especially you that know me in real life, know that I'm like ultra conscious about how I look! I grew up being called Fat. and because of that, I actually have a pretty low self-esteem in that area.

I have always wanted to be skinny, as I was indeed a bit bigger back then. But living in Provo, then Mongolia, and back in Provo again (But not Spanish Fork, as that all seemed to be soda and junk food) actually made me loose a bit of weight, and look a TON skinnier!

lol, weight is very embarressing, but I really don't care, so I will tell you anyways. Before when I lived in Salem I was about 190. While the BMI chart said that was normal, I never felt that was normal! I always felt FAAAAAAAAT!!!

After those 3 months in Provo, I went down to 180. I felt skinnier, and I looked it too. But still, 180 was NOT skinny enough.

After those 3 months in Mongolia I dropped HUGE 30lbs to become 150lbs! I have stayed around this weight ever since. and to be honest, I'm perfectly happy with this. 150 for a guy is not bad, in fact its pretty good! I look and feel a TON skinnier! ^.^

But it really isn't enough. I'm not going to feel good about myself until I am Perfect. So, after lots of researching, I've decided to give P90X a try.

I don't really want to bulk up, I just want to get toned.

But still. This is going to be like WAY hard work! Every single day, for 90 days, I will be working out insanely!

However, in the end, I think it should be worth it. When I finally get the chance to start it, I'm going to put a countdown timer on the side of my blog. But until then, thank you AnnaLisa for letting me borrow your copy! and Candice! For letting me have your old blender! ^.^

They want you to take before and after pictures. But I'm not going to show you all my Before pictures ^.~ hehe. well, maybe after the afters have been taken. But yeah.....

HARD WORK!

Imagine and Wonder

2010-11-15T22:23:00.000-08:00

Imagine

I still really like you.
Alot.
I can imagine meeting you at the airport,
you standing there as I run and pretty much tackle you with a hug!
I can imagine driving home and talking.
I can imagine giving you the grand tour of my apartment.
I can imagine coaxing out a single kiss from your lips and having it feel like fireworks in heaven.
I can imagine everything.
I can imagine just watching a movie together on the couch,
our own private safe haven from the world.
I can imagine it being a still and quiet night, with only the moon shining in the darkness.
I can imagine you silently coming into the room and slipping under the covers.
I would cuddle up to you.
Just to be close to you
feel the heat from your body,
listen to your heartbeat and the sound of your breathing.
I can imagine in the early hours of the morning,
waking up quietly and making you breakfast,
so when you woke up it would be right there.
I can imagine your smile,
and I can imagine your laugh.
I can imagine your touch.
But I can't imagine your love.
------

and Wonder

Because I wonder
Do you love me?
Like I love you?
Do you think of me?
Do you wonder how I'm doing?
Am I a toy that has lost its newness?
To be discarded and replaced with something better?
Have I been forgotten?
You seem so distant
and I can't reach you.
But I think about you.
and I wonder about you.
But will I ever have you?
Come out and just say it
Do you love me?
Or do you not?
Its been a long time
yet that question still remains.
I want to be in love.
I want to feel that joy.
I would do anything for you
and you know it.
But I know the truth.
You don't share those same feelings
Just come out and admit it.

------

I realized that I NEVER posted these here! What a shock! so here they are now. Don't read to far into them.

There are also 2 songs attached to them, that were slight inspiration, or at least these reminded me of those songs

Imagine:

and Wonder:

Voice of my Sound

2010-11-13T21:16:00.001-08:00

You always take his side

Your never takin’ mine

I thought we were such friends

All down till the end.

But now I see you flow

With the whim of the crowd

Doesn’t matter if we’re proud

Your gonna go with the pop’s

Hangin with the jocks

Because they are cool

But we’re the ones that rule

The ones that don’t hide their face

Ashamed of who they are

The ones who fight the race of life

Who run instead of being maze mice

Being brainless

Choose your side

I know whos your on

I’m not gonna let that slide

Don’t say any words for they’ll only condemn you

You look to the crowd and hope they commend you

You faker, you cheater, you freaking deserter

I’m done with you, and your masks

You put on so people think you have class

I’m the one with the rhymes.

I’m the one going to the finish line

I’m winning this race

I’m gonna show on my face

That I’m better than you all

That sit around and think small

I’m thinking big

I’m gonna make it big

I’m gong to be famous

Wait and see

Hangin’ with me’s the place to be

I’m goin’ somewhere

Your goin’ nowhere

So see yah later

I’m leavin’ this town

Goin’ to make it

With the voice of my sound

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5 minutes. Extra angry/extra annoyed/extra ERAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Learning to Draw

2010-11-11T12:33:00.000-08:00

So, about 2 weeks ago I bought a sketchbook just for the fun of it. I'm not very good at drawing, like at all, but I'm going to try and learn! yay!

Mostly I want to be able to draw so I can make some awesome storyboards!

I am going to try and focus mostly on drawing people, since I think they are the most important part of most drawings/art!

But last night, I drew this using Microsoft Paint. It took about 10 minutes (loooong time, I know)

So yeah, this is one of 3 projects I am currently working on!

Project 1: Learning to Draw

Project 2 will be tomorrows post ^.~

Later!

Glee 2:6 - Never Been Kissed

2010-11-10T20:29:00.000-08:00

Wow. This episode shattered all expectations.

I honestly didn't think much of this one. All of the previews did it no justice, making it sound like it was just another mash-up episode. I had no clue what I was getting into until I watched it.

Chris Colfer said that this was the first episode in the bullying saga. You can totally see why. There are suddenly a LOT more things going on! More problems to solve, more drama to be expanded upon.

I really loved the Warblers singing Teenage Dream. I've had that on my ipod for about 2 weeks now, and it was good to finally see it in context to the rest of the show.

I was completely jealous when Blaine took Kurts hand. I guess all the rumors were wrong, Sam really isn't going to be Kurts boyfriend. Honestly, I'd be happy with Blaine, he is nice, talented, and very understanding.

It really bothered me that Kurt kept being bullied. But when he finally confronted him, that scene was one of the single most shocking moments of my entire life!

I feel so bad for Beist. I actually really like her. But I'm glad things turned around in the end. To be honest, I want to see more of Beist/Sue fights. I like Sue, but I would rather vote for Beist (even though I really really like Sue!)

and when Will kissed Coach Beist I felt like she really deserved it. I also think this might add something to the Will/Emma relationship that I think was pretty much killed off in my mind. All of Wills pathetic begging to get her to be with him was awful. Like completely pitiful. But I actually do hope that maybe Will will indeed fall in love with Beist! I really really want this to happen!

They also toyed a little with Artie and Puck. We got to see more of Pucks character, while also seeing more of the Artie/Brittany relationship. Sadly I have also given up on Artie/Tina. Tina doesn't deserve him. But I think Artie/Brittany might actually get somewhere!

but most importantly, to me at least, is the Kurt/? relationship. I really really want to see him with someone, since I think of his character as a parody of my own life. I really hope the Kurt/Blaine relationship turns out. Even though that will certainly create more problems since they are both technically on opposite teams. But somehow I get the feeling that Blaine will be understanding.

All in all this episode was a solid 10/10. I have never thought of any of the newer ones as a 10 before. But I feel like this episode is getting back into the real spirit of Glee.

Until the next episode - The Substitute airing next week on the 16th

^.~

Teenage Dream - Glee Cast
(Blaines the main singer)

Backfire

2010-11-03T12:33:00.000-07:00

So, remember how proud I was that I got my background to go transparent? Well much to my chagrin I can't get it back to normal! I tried to a couple weeks ago when I was going to do a halloween theme. Unfortunately I'm going to have to find the prototype to my blog. I have tried to use Picture Perfect, but to no avail! So sadly I can't fix it unless I take the time to go through and figure out what it was I removed >.<, Lots of hard work ahead!

So, P!NK released the real music video to her hit song Raise Your Glass. I'm not going to lie, it was WEIRD. Like even Lady Gaga has not hit that kind of weird before. So I'm going to have to say I do not recommend watching it. But the song is still fantastic! ^.^

In otha neews - I saw the movie Red. It wasn't bad, and it had funny parts to it. But I'd give it a solid B if I was grading it. It was neither here nor there. and I thought it was a one time see. But others that saw it raved how awesome it was. so either they have low standards, or mine are set too high.

In more otha neews - I saw the final episode of Cowboy Bebop. I can now say I have seen the entire series. It really was not that good at all! It was rated the best anime ever. Like the best ever. I would give it a C it really didn't engage me at all! I mean, it had its moments, but on the whole, it felt like a waste of time....

Song of the day: Paparazzi by Lady Gaga

I love the chorus! When I'm alone at work I like to sing this song ^.~
---
I'm your biggest fan, I'll follow you until you love me.
Papa-paparazzi

Baby theres no other superstar, you know that I'll be your
Papa-paparazzi

Promise I'll be kind. But I won't stop until that boy is mine.

Baby you'll be famous, chase you down until you love me
papa-paparazzi
---

There is a specific crush I think of when I listen to this song ^.~

Its pretty obvious if you know me ^.~

Later!

Fireworks

2010-11-01T12:47:00.000-07:00

Katy Perry finally released her music video to her hit song Firework. This video honestly meant a lot to me personally. The fighting parents scene is a familiar one, and the boys actions are ones I have imagined doing (good for him!). 2:11 meant a lot to me personally as well. In the end, I have gotten more respect for Katy Perry. Katy, I love you!

So, for Halloween this year I was in fact a Team Rocket grunt ^.~ It was SOOOOOOOOOooooooooo much fun! ^.^ I'm going to post some pictures, because it was so freaking awesome! ^.^ Also, when I went to a school dance with some friends there was a girl there dressed in the girl Rocket costume! It was so awesome! Then there was someone dressed as Ash!!! So we all hung around each other and tried to enter the costume contest together, but we didn't win (but I think it was rigged so only people from that school could win!) But still, it was awesome!

I know there are others, but I cant find the photographer!!! When I do, I'll post some more! ^.^

Oh, also, Kyle Comoletti, (hes Ash) I can't find you anywhere! I wanted to link the pictures to you, but in cyberspace your a mystery ^.~ So if you ever find this post, shoot me an email and I'll send you the rest of the pics!

So, I let my friend Bettina (Magenta) read my scary story Strangle. I was so scared to let her read it! But it all turned out fine in the end! what a relief! I loved your ideas, and I'm actually going to use a lot of them ^.^ To be honest I was so scared to read your rewrites that I would read a few of them, feel so embarrassed that I didn't catch those errors, and leave for like 10 minutes before returning and reading a few more lines. Rinse and repeat until the end. Yeah, I was hardcore embarrassed! But thank you for reading it anyways! and oddly enough, I know that scene did have an ending...I don't know why it wasn't there!

Lately I have just been working working working! and if I get lucky I might be moving up to Salt Lake City! Yay!!! ^.^ More to come later!

Cya later my friends!

Lets make your day

2010-10-25T12:05:00.000-07:00

I am writing today about these 3 songs that I am absolutely fascinated with!

The first one is Firework by Katie Perry.
This is one of those general feel good songs. Listening to it just fills me with such hope! ^.^

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You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
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The second one is No Floods by Lady Gaga. This is Gaga before she went Gaga ^.~ Its just peaceful and sweet. And you can hear the Gaga in her in the chorus ^.~

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This last one is my all time favorite right now. Its Magic by B.o.B. This is a song I really feel like I can relate to. You know you have the magic in you ^.~ But this song also reminds me of someone else. It keeps reminding me of J. Scott Savage. Especially his Farworld books. Since their saying is Take courage - The magic is already inside you. At least thats what the bookmark says ^.~

These are the 3 songs that are inspiring me right now, and I feel that you should feel their inspiration as well ^.^

No Floods, Firework, Magic,
~Me

Graves of past friends

2010-10-23T00:36:00.000-07:00

Conjunctures on fire

That pass through the ire

Of living by day

On lies that you hate

Your heartbroken smile

A heart so hostile

Your fake little laugh

A soul torn in half

Words left unspoken

A body that’s broken

Your thoughts are so scattered

Your mind has now shattered

A rain of falling pain on winds of brevity

A voice in the dark of dejected longevity

A sad dark depressing pitiful sigh

Your visage, a complex, and spirit it dyes

Sad little whispers

And roses that whither

On graves of past friends that die in your mind

Yet shadows now drown you

And drag you down far

Your light will extinguish

And leaves only scars

A serious solemn ominous tomb

Dry broken leaves, a teardrop or two

All this awaits you in cold quiet peace

Ice bound in chains and movement deceased

A being of frozen desires and nightmare

Shivers of fear, for being alone

In your own thoughts icy as bone

A ghost of a phantom you drift from the mind

Forgotten at once with form undefined

Trapped in your cruelty, there is your heart

Dying of malice it now departs

Your body is gone, turned into dust

That blows away sadly in the first gust

A soul oh so lost and footsteps of frost

Those bitter long days that took their cost

This spirit now wanders with wails of despair

This sorrow and misery you should beware.

The one final note

To whom this is wrote

This futures not far.

You know who you are.

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You know who you are

Scorch Trials, Birthdays, and more!

2010-10-14T00:28:00.000-07:00

So much has been going on! ^.^ So.....

-I saw Glee 2:4 today! Pretty good! Loved every minute of it!!! ^.^ As usual Glee is awesome. It was called Duets. Go see it on Hulu!

-Scorch Trials came out yesterday! Woot woot! I have not gotten around to cracking this diamond open, but it sure is loving being up next to its siblings on my bookshelf! ^.^

-Speaking of siblings. Today was my little brother Ryans birthday!!! Happy Birthday Ryan!!! I love you! Your now 14!

I got him 2 little lego sets. I think he liked them ^.~

-So, recently I have gotten into the show Lost. Not going to lie, its not a huge brain buster or anything. But It is good, it does have mystery and intrigue. and it is fun to watch. So I recommend it!

-I picked up a video game at Wal-mart the other day. It's called Drawn. It looks pretty interesting, and I'm excited to start playing it!

-I still need to drop of my costume at the mall to get the emblem put on it. But that can wait for later ^.^

-Oh, I have a step counter that I decided to take to work today for the fun of it. It claims that after 9 hours of working at walmart I walked around 40,000 steps!!! It is said that around 10,000 steps is 5 miles. So does this mean I walked 20 miles? Step counters also cant stop 'false steps' where it picks up only movement. Even then, deciding that only half of them were real, thats still around 10 Miles! or 20,000 steps! This is why I am so tired when I get home!

So yeah, this is a short review of what has been happening! I could write entire blog posts on each subject alone! ^.^ but I won't. Short and sweet is how I need to take it! I seem to have no time anymore!!! ^.^

Later all you fans, friends, and creepy stalker peoples!

Finally, A break!

2010-10-11T12:58:00.000-07:00

So, after working 6 entire days with 4, 9 hour shifts, I finally have a day off! ^.~

Here are my updates on LiFe!

So first, for all of you that don't know I'm going to be this for halloween! ^.^

So its like a way easy costume to make! ^.^ But it will mean something to me, since I'm still a fan of Pokemon ^.^

James Dashners Scorch Trials comes out tomorrow!!! I am so going to read that book every chance I get!!!! I'm so excited for it!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, this is something I have been WAY so excited about for a long long time!!! Everyone knows how big of a fan of Glee I am ^.^ Well it was rumored months and months ago that they were maybe going to feature the Rocky Horror Picture Show on an episode! Well its now official! on October 26th they are going to air an episode called the Rocky Horror Glee Show!!!!!! ^.^ I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited for it!!! yay!!!! ^.^

I'm hoping my hollywood crush Chris Colfer gets a big part in that one! ^.^

Sweet! I found shots of it!!! Uh, but Chris is going to be the creepy guy in it! I'm slightly disappointed! But it'll still be nice!

So I guess those are my 3 updates of the day! I'm going to get around to answering both Bettinas and Rainys tags if I get the chance ^.~

Peace out!

~Jacoby, Future Team Rocket Member!

Glee 2:3 + Religion

2010-10-06T11:12:00.000-07:00

This episode actually meant a lot to me personally. It was very moving, dealing with the subject of God.

I have the same views that are expressed in the show. Religion really doesn't have a high opinion of gays. We are sinners of the worst sort in their eyes.

I can't stand it when people say being gay is a choice. Who chooses to be hated, to be prejudiced against? Who chooses to fear for their lives in certain part of the world? Talking to a friend who lives in Poland I found that Nazis are still very much alive in that part of the world. and that they have no problem killing people that identify as gay. We are talking cold blooded murder.

Who would choose this? I don't believe for one minute that its a choice. But everyone has their own opinions and are allowed to express them as they see fit.

Right now the LDS church is under fire because of a talk broadcast worldwide about how homosexuality is a sin.

"“There are those today who not only tolerate but advocate voting to change laws that would legalize immorality, as if a vote would somehow alter the designs of God’s laws and nature,” Boyd K. Packer, president of the church’s Quorum of Twelve Apostles, said in a strongly worded sermon about the dangers of pornography and same-sex marriage. “A law against nature would be impossible to enforce. Do you think a vote to repeal the law of gravity would do any good?”"

This isn't a vote against gravity. This is a struggle of life and death. If you watch the news you will have noticed the depressingly high number of suicides especially with gay teens. People are dying over this. People that feel no acceptance, that feel they are alone in the world.

Do you realize what that talk is going to do? It is going to cause more LDS families to reject their gay children. More children kicked out of their homes. More loss, more depression. and more suicides.

Its hard for you to understand our point of view. but have you ever considered that it might be just as hard for us to understand yours? Everyone around us is asking us to change. To be someone else. We don't ask you to change.

I honestly wonder what would happen if the situation was reversed. What if someone totally straight decided that they were going to try being gay. That they took classes, and went to institutions. Convinced themselves that they really were gay, when they are not. Would it work? Would they actually be gay? Can you really change your fundamental core that easily? I ask this because this is what the world is asking of us. They ask that we take classes in being straight, they want us to go to institutions, they want us to change our core beliefs. So, would it work? Would we actually be straight? Would we realize that our beliefs are wrong?

The hardest thing about this debate is the fact that we are in the very bottom Minority! From what I have looked up we are in the low 2% of the entire world wide population. 2%!!! How are we supposed to fight for our rights to be like everyone else when we are only a paper-thin minority?

Right now I'm burned out with this conversation, and I have to leave for work in half an hour.

So Glee 2:3 - Grilled Cheesus was very good. I loved it alot, and the fact it focused on Kurt. I don't believe he should have pushed his friends away like that, but I do believe he had a point.

Also I'm sick and have pretty much lost my voice. It sucks.

Earlier when I was quoting Boyd K Packer he said "Do you think a vote to repeal the law of gravity would do any good?"

That made me think of a song I listen to at least 7 times a day. I am going to share this with you under strictest confidence, as I find the song almost sacred to me.

You can't repeal the law. But you can defy it.

P!NK'S NEW SONG!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!

2010-10-05T15:19:00.000-07:00

So, I just got an email from P!nks website, advertising her new album P!nks "Greatest Hits....So Far!!!"

Well it has a link to it, letting you hear one of her new rocking songs EARLY!!!! OH MY GOSH ITS SO EPIC!!! Its called Raise your Glass! ^.^ Listen to it!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Link

There is some swearing in it, so be forewarned. But still, totally a new favorite!!!! ^.^

Just leave me alone. I'm not a sin.

2010-10-05T13:19:00.000-07:00

It doesn't matter what I contribute or what I do

It won't ever mean a thing to you

You say you were kidding, but I know the facts

I can tell when your honest, or when its an act.

I will always be a 'guest' no matter where I go

I want my own home, a house, my own chateau

Lifes not a country where I follow you laws

Your laws are choking, and so filled with flaws

I want to play by my own rules, not go along with yours

I won't be another in your military corps

Give me the keys so I can break the chain

That holds us together when you don't want the pain

The only way to break free is to run away or die

or God grant me wings so I can fly so high

Will I never find a safe place to call my own?

A home I can live my life you so condone?

I'm sick of this, I always have been.

Just leave me alone. I'm not a sin.

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Song of the Day. Set Free by Kaie Gray

7 Things you didn't know about me

2010-10-01T12:53:00.000-07:00

1) I remember the very first story I ever wrote. I was in first grade and I wrote a story about a boy who was kidnapped (because a story is ALWAYS about kidnap when written by a child) who was put in a cage (for its always cages as well) in a cave filled with treasure.

2) I do not have a favorite color. It used to be Pink and Blue when I was in kindergarten. Then it was purple. Then it was silver. Then it was blue. Then red. Dark red. Dark blue. Light blue. White. Black. It's always changing because I LOVE color! But I mostly gravitate to Blues, Reds, Pinks, Tans, and Whites.

3) I used to believe that I ran faster in the dark. Yet amazingly, I did!

4) I have a weakness for small silverware and saucers. In our cupboard we have the normal sized plates, then we have the really small ones (saucers) that you put your cup on. You know what I'm talking about, right? Well those are the only plates I grab. I feel that because they are smaller, you put a smaller portion on your plate because it looks like you are filling your plate faster, leading you to actually eat healthier!

Then I really love small silverware! Like the tiny spoons and dessert forks (I think they are dessert forks). Whatever the fork is, it only has 3 prongs. I love the fact that because I have toddler siblings, we have those small colorfull plastic forks and spoons! I don't care if I look ridiculous using them, they are still my favorite. The reason I love these are they force you to eat slower. I know WAY too many people that finish a meal in like 30 seconds flat! I don't feel they are actually getting the full experience.With a small fork, you can only get so much onto a fork, mean you eat slower, meaning you actually get to taste and enjoy whatever it is your eating!

5) The very first online game I ever played was called Neopets. My username was Ulee_Boy. I loved that game, then one day I couldn't log onto my character. I was locked out forever. This was in my 5th grade year. Also, if you visit the link, notice my name is Robin Skyhi. I have had my angel story idea for Robin Skyhigh since 5th grade. back in 2002. The reason his lastname is only Skyhi and not Skyhigh is because I thought that was how you spelled High. Also I liked Code Lyoko. Still do ^.~

6) When playing video games, I have a set name for everything.

If the game is online I use the name Yulie (ulee).

If the game is offline I use the name Robin.

and if its not a game, but a website, I will always use my real name.

7) I have a lantern fetish. I just LOVE lanterns!!! ^.^ But I only own one. And its awesome!

(This lantern is mine. and my favorite!)

Glee 2:2 - Britney/Brittany

2010-09-30T17:40:00.000-07:00

I totally loved this episode!!! It had a lot of elements of a good Glee episode! Not to mention they had like 5 songs!

Okay, this is really sad to say, but I didn't grow up with Britney Spears. In fact I hardly know her at all. So I'm sure I would have gotten much more out of this if I had listened to her music more. The most experience with her music was a remix that her and Linkin Park did together; Toxic Faint, a mix of Britneys Toxic, and LPs Faint. Honestly, its pretty good (and in my Ipod)

Some things I loved about this episode ^.^

I absolutely loved Brittany in this episode, and her revelation that her name is Brittany Spears (Brittany S. Pierce)

Also it was pretty cool that Kurt stood up to Mr. Schuester!

Also Sue was SOOOOO funny in this episode! with her description of the Democratic party of whatever year. Also she had absolutely amazing acting when she pulled the fire alarm

All in all it was a very good episode! ^.^

Saw Glee Season 2 Episode 1!!!!

2010-09-23T12:44:00.000-07:00

Okay, so I saw Glee Season 2 Episode 1!!! ^.^ Watch it here - Glee Season 2 Episode 1 on Hulu

I had mixed feelings on it. First, I loved the song Lea Michelle and Charice sing together in the bathroom! That was the best scene ever! Total verbal cat fight with Lea Michelle, while Charice was simply enjoying herself. Watch it below, its AWESOME! If you don't watch it you will have bad luck for those 2 minutes you could have spent watching it!

(Note to self, use the 400 Format!)

So, was that not awesome or what! ^.^ Also, for some really odd reason, the picture is completely reversed! If you watch the full episode on Hulu you'll see it. Its weird. It's better when its normal.

But lets see, honestly that was the only song I really 'felt'. The others were just 'meh' and a shoulder shrug.

and AHHHHHHH! I HATE the new quarterback!!!!!!! Only because of what he later becomes!!!!!

Also, it was pretty cool that they set up a few problems already that need to be overcome. A new coach, love relationships all out of whack, the cheerleading squad squabbles. You know, awesome stuff. This season had better be good!!!

All in all, it was a pretty decent opening. But they could have made it better!

But still, I'm a Gleek forever ^.~

And Chris Colfer is still hot

Living at Home

2010-09-18T13:20:00.000-07:00

Honestly, living at home has been the best thing to ever happen!

I have a car, I have a home, I have a job! All of this within the first 2 weeks I was back! ^.^

It's great being able to drive anywhere I want, just because I want to go somewhere.

and It's way cool being able to work a few hours a day knowing I'm getting a paycheck ^.^

My family is totally awesome ^.^ Its fun being able to play games with them, and just talk and chill!

Seriously, I love you family <3

^.^ Living at home is totally the best!

Most need of a Hug

2010-09-15T23:20:00.000-07:00

~Sometimes the one who seems the strongest is the one who is in the most need of a hug~

This picture and this quote are so touching! ^.^

I found the picture using google, and the quote is something a friend showed me ^.^

Totally love it ^.^

Today's song of the day! (I love how they are the same person! ^.^)

Job Orientation! and GLEE!!! ^.^

2010-09-14T21:22:00.000-07:00

So, I went in for Job Orientation today! I was there for like 6 hours and it was SO fun!!! ^.^

We went over a bunch of the rules, policies, yata yata yata. But it was great! ^.^ Total fun!

Also, I GOT THE COMPLETE FIRST SEASON OF GLEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(!x1,000,000)

I'm so excited for this! ^.^ I love Glee so so much!

Chris Colfer (Kurt Hummel in the show) is my favorite actor ever! He is the entire reason I watch that show ^.^

I totally recommend it! ^.^

Well, I have nothing else to say ^.^

LATER!

~Jacoby